[!~LiYaNa~!]

2009-03-10T23:21:00.002+08:00

Im back from my trip to kl.. Tinky aunt got married there. Had soo much fun.. We took bus to go there. Surprisingly the journey there is not as i expected. I thought the journey to kl will take us ard 8 hrs but we reach dere 4 hrs later..lol.. We went to his aunt place straight after we reach his aunt place fer the soleminization ceremony.After dat we check into a hotel n without wasting anytime, we went to do sum shopping at the Petaling Street. The well known place to shop fer imitation branded goods. It look exactly the same.. Bought sum stuff which caught my eye.. Went for supper after almost all shops are closing and after all of us are full, we went back to our hotel for rest.

The next day, we set out early fer the wedding reception. Luckily we set out early coz we get lost even after asking help ard.. hahakz.. After everything is done, we went back to our hotel to change.. Sum of the aunties didnt follow us to shop again coz the weather is really scorching hot and wats more they bought most of their stuff the night before. This time ard Tinky did alot of shopping.. Happy banget lah tu.. lol. And i forget one thing.. Wen we were dere, we went ard mostly using this exclusive cab. U guys wanna sumting?? Every 6 secs, the meter are will rise.. Can u imagine how much it cos us fer a journey which last less den 1 hr?? 100 RM. For goodness sake.. its soooo freaking expensive!!! Imagine our cab fare here rise ever 6 secs.. No one will take the cab ever again.. So ridiculuos rite.. Haiz..

Klah i have to stop here, my bro wanna use the lappie.. toodles..

2009-03-06T20:02:00.007+08:00

You are my everything

My heart and soul

You are the only one

Who makes me whole

You are my shinning light

My moon and stars

The one who finds me

When I'm in the dark

You are my joy

The one i adore

You mean so much to me

I couldn't ask for more

You are my strength

The one that carries me through

Making me stronger

With every "I Love You"

You are my music

And the words to my song

The reason why I'm alive

And not dead and gone

You are my everything

My galaxy and my world

Hold my hand Baby

You are my everything

I will never let you fall

*ps: counting down the hrs fer my super duper short getaway..hehe

2009-03-05T04:08:00.003+08:00

At last a miracle happen.. Lol.. Its been way too long since i last update.. Suddenly out of the blue, i have the urge to update this dusty blog of mine.. ahackz.. heck care lah.. I dun think anione out dere is reading my blog oso.. Oh well wats been happening all dis time dat i went M.I.A , alot of things happen.. And i mean really alot.. But thank god im still breathing right now.. hehe.. Watever i wish dat it wont happen it happen. Simply to say everything change, cum and go unexpectedly.. Yeah. But i gotta be strong.. Watever happen is all done.. Cant be undo.

Im happy enough dat those important people in my life is still standing by me. Wat more cud i ask fer.. hmm well cut everything short i juz cant wait fer my short getaway dis week end.. tilll den toodles.. =)

2008-07-04T14:36:00.000+08:00

Its friday todae.. dat means, my sch hols will end in 2 days time.. 3 weeks of the sch hols is up.. time flew reli fast.. n i soo dun enjoy my hols at all. I juz got back from the sc camp last nite. The ever first camp dat i attend ever since i went to that sch.. Im not into camp nowadays.. Kalau zaman sec boleh lah.. Hahakz.. So far, the camp is not bad lah.. There will be anotha one cuming up at the end of this mth.. Dont think i will be going. Ahackz. Aniwae i 'act' as KATHY the busybody in their nite walk activity. Was located in the canteen... Its feels eerie at nite n more eerie wen they on onli couple of lights. Some of the campers were freak out wen the came upon the 'ghosts'. LOL. Hilarious.Overall nt bad lah.i was reli worn out n exhausted. I've been having reli reli bad insomia during the hols. in one day i onli slept lyk couple of hrs only. And can u imagine dat since last sat till yesterday, the total time i slept is like LESS than 24HRS!!!! dat bad rite.. i do feel tired n sleepy but i cant shut my eyes.. So b4 sch reopen i plan to have more rest. =)

Klah all dis fer now.. gonna have sum rest.. toodles. =)

2008-06-16T04:27:00.000+08:00

Its freaking 4.30 am in the morn n i still not hitting the sack yet.. im sleepy n i have to wake up at 8 ltr to finish up my project in sch..but this eyes juz wont give way.. grrr.. the hols r here.. n i can bet ya dat most of the days i will bum my ass at home.. basically the reason is no one is free to meet up with me, bf bz werking n im not werking animore n therefor im b-r-o-k-e! Sucks isnt it.. I miss my gfs loads.. i miss crapping jokes with dem, the all girls day out chilling, the use to have picnics back to our sec sch days n much much more... My girls r all bz n tied down with their work n their other commitments.. hmmm but u guys still need a break rite.. =p.

Somehow i feel dat no one came upon my blog.. was thinking whether to shut down dis blog or not. Dun noe lah.. i will consider about it again.. hmm im feeling super super bored rite now.. wat shall i do now huh.. hmm.. i guess all dis fer now.. gonna play the psp till i fall asleep..hehe.. till den..

2008-06-10T11:42:00.000+08:00

Whom will i turn to if im having any probs.. definitely not my family.. frens?? who? i cant think of one.. bf? i dun think so.. i will be adding to his burden.. it feels reali sucky.. i hate ME! wat can i do now? probs came in one by one.. n its getting more n more.. cud i end my life juz to end the misery dat im goin thru rite now.. i guess i need to be alone n away from everyone n everything.. maybe i be back maybe i dun.. till den..

2008-06-05T19:30:00.001+08:00

ALL BECAUSE OF YOU TINKY

When you first arrived,

I thought you was just another guy,

But over time you became much more,

You became my whole world.

I know that it has only,

been but a few days,

But somehow you have poisoned my mind,

You have put me into a daze.

I don't know how you've done it,

This is all very confusing to me,

But when I close my eyes,

You are all I see.

Even now as I write this poem,

All because of you,

I can't think of what to write,

My tongue has become tied too!

I don't know how to describe this feeling,

I don't know what to say,

The only thing I know,

Is that you re perfect in every way.

All because you came into my world,

I no longer know what to say or do,

All except these three little words,

"I LOVE YOU".

2008-05-21T12:06:00.000+08:00

Holaaa.. update2.. my blog looks as though is been abandon huh.. lol.. i will have the super duper basi pictures taken during the may babies pit on 2nd till 4th may.. it was a blast, n i do enjoy myself with the peeps all ard, bathing in he sea, getting sunburn n dark... im loving every bits of it.. thankz to all who came n make dis thing happen n i would like to apologise if i didnt get to entertain some of my guest.. n not forgotten the beautiful pressie dat i recieve from the guest..truly sorie.. after the pit, i decided to have pink extension on my hair.. cheap2.. i bunch of hair is one bucks so i did 12 of it.. the turn out is pretty cool.. i loike, i loike..the colours can run down too.. =) aim n mell did their hair too but mine is the niciest.. hehe..

u guys noe wat?? im craving fer yogurt ice-cream.... original flavour with strawberry toppings.. *drools* the one from frolick is the bomb.. everytime, after work without fail, i will grab it after work.. since im working todae, im gonna get it todae.. yippee... =)

last sat after work, my dear art fetch me from work.. shes soo sweet.. from sembawang she came down to holland juz to fetch me from work.. love u darl.. we went town, had dinner at this ayam bakar shop which is delicious.. theres this drink dat i love simply becoz its in pink.. i cant recall wats the name of the drink.. all i noe its pink in the bottom with shredded coconut n sum 'tadpole eggs',(i dun noe wats its call). Next we head down to wisma n dats where she bought this macaron.. dats nice too.. deres in pink too.. hehe after that we head down to amk to meet her mates where they r doin sum shooting fer sch stuff.. Throughout the whole day, art treat me.. i didnt fork out a cent... i feel bad ok darl.. hmmph.. thankz alot fer the gifts n the treat..i end the day by meeting my tinky.. =) love love..

I end my rant here with the pictures aight... enjoy!!! =)

Thats all folk.. Have a good day! =)

2008-05-02T04:41:00.000+08:00

Holla..im back fer a short update.. Been eons since i update an entry.. Bz with sch, work n the bf.. Cant get to sleep so i decided to update this dusty blog of mine. Aniwae practically everything is doin fine in my life.. N i mean all.. example will be like sch , family, the bf n frens.. =) As my bdae falls on diz cuming may dat is on sat, i decided to hold a mini celebration buy booking a pit.. Collaborate with sum of the may babies.. I soo cant wait fer things to work out as plan.. And fer sure, those come will will go back with a full stomach n a happy face.. hehe.. My tinky treat me to swensens few days back.. i will update the pixies.. Thank u soo much dear... i reli appreciate it alot.. He treat me to an advance supper plus an advanced birthday song.. Soo sweet of him.. Not only am i celebrating the bdae but my cat too.. they turn 1, whereas i turn 20..ahackz.. HAPPY BDAE TIGER N SCOOBY..I gotta hit the sack, its like 5.00 am n i have class at 8.. God, i must be crazy.. till den, i will update the pixies from the pit aight.. toodles..

2008-01-24T11:46:00.000+08:00

Life has been a bit better.. Sch was ok fer now juz bout the attendance thingy.. ahackz.. Droped one of the subjects coz i noe i cant do it.. Right now im involved in organizing school event such as the dinner n dance for the graduates n more.. In my mind i was thingking to take up a new course after i have completed my 2 yr in higher nitec.. Im taking up courses of my interest not anione else.. In another words, im wasting another 2 yrs again.. This was what is in my mind.. Wen i told mum bout it, she choose the path that i hate dat is goin to poly.. Fyi, she oreadi plan my life schedule. Up to the age im suppose to get marry n bla bla bla.. How i hate ppl lining up my life.. But no matter wat, im juz gonna go on with the life that i wanna lead n decide every decision on my own.. =)

Aniwae one of my sec fren is blissfully engaged on 20th Jan.. So happy fer her.. She look great with her purple n gold oufit. I will post her pic ltr in her purple outfit... So chio.. =) I have run out of words.. Will update again aight.. Till den.. Toodles.. =)

2008-01-04T14:51:00.000+08:00

I knoe its way too late but i will juz say it ok.. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL.. lol.. a brand new yr is a brand new start for me n for everyone else.i spent my countdown dis yr at wdld. with the dance peeps.. not so bad afterall.. =) n i wasnt even felt sleepy despite staying awake the whole nite.. Nuting much happen lately. Meet my darling art yesterday.. Onli god noe how much i miss her.. =) Shes mch more prettier rite now n she look abit to chinese lookin.. Mix too much with chinese ah girl... hehe.. Well she tag along to visit my dad. Thank u dat darl.. Next we went to city hall.. We intend to eat dinner der,but since we cant reli decide where to eat, we take out subway n chippys.. I bought fish n chips n darl had spicy chicken over at chippys.. *slurps* We sat infront of the memo near the raffles shopping centre.. The weather is cool. The wind juz cant stop blowing at us till sum of our stuffs r flying ard.. ahackz.. In the end we dun reli finish up our food..

Next i meet up with azlina,aim n mell. We went to visit wan at his place. Azlina inform us dat the day b4, wan had an bike accident n is in a bad condition. He skidded n his bike was under the bus.. Lucky him dat he is still alive.. At his place, we watch I AM LEGEND while aim n mell was busy battling their snores away..lol. Lastly went to srisun fer supper.. Suhaimi came down after dat. Talk n talk n its like 4am oreadi. Soo fast n we lose track of the time. Mum call n she tell me dat shes lockin the door n not letting me in. Dats her forte. My fault oso coz i dint inform her dat im gonna be home late.. hehe.. klah i guess i rant too mucg.. Sch reopen in 2 days time.. Looking forward abit to it.. hehe.. till den have a great weekends aight..toodles.. =)

*ps; im missing my tinky winky so badly.. =(

2007-12-31T19:02:00.000+08:00

It will be 2008 in few hrs time. N wat the hell m i still doing at home??? OMFG!!!! grrr.... i have no idea where to go.. wen i ask each of my fren, they oso dun noe where to go. Like WTH!!! I've been bumming on the sofa fer the whole day.. God, im such a bummer.. I guess i better move up my ass n get ready.. Just get ready la.. Who knoe sum kind soul will ring me up n ask me out.. Hehe.. Till den toodles.. =) N b4 i go HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE !!!! 2008 here i COME!!!

2007-12-26T17:42:00.000+08:00

The past few days i been a happy kid.. ahackz.. despite im down with a bad flu n oso lack of sleep, i reli enjoy myself with watever i do. wohoo.. the feeling is so shiooook ok.. lol.. there will be sum photos that i will be put up.. Me n aim dining at TCC n eat to out heart content n oso pics of before n after kamarsutra performance at ys.. =) Hehe.. Todae is my off day.. Im gonna sit n rot the whole day at home n get the housework all done b4 my mum is back.. She will be back in juz 2 days time.. woh0oo.. enjoy the pixies. till den toodles..

Thats all folks.. =)

2007-12-21T13:32:00.000+08:00

Just wen i had completed mending the broken pieces, it juz had to break again.. How sucks it can be. I dun noe wat to look upon in life animore.. I guess i had enuff. Im oreadi stress with the things r doin rite now but double stress wen dad came back few days back. We didnt expect his returned to be so soon. We dun reli knoe how to cope with him ard. Hes not hes usual self animore.. I guess its due to the absence of my mum.. I treat all diz as a test.. I will try my best to be strong but i noe it wont last long.. Watever i is life still have to move on.. till den.. toodles..

2007-12-18T22:13:00.000+08:00

This time is the lowest time of my life.. Everything is out of places.. I feel so exhausted n worn out. I dun reli do things dat much.. Sometimes i can juz spent my whole day doing nuting.. Absolutely nuting.. Dat bad huh.. I dun reli noe wat to say animore.. guess i will update soon aight.. till den.. n oh it will be 11 days away till my mama is home.. wohoooo.. =)

2007-12-08T01:22:00.000+08:00

I dun noe whether i shud be happy,sad or wat. The ex called n we chat fer a few hrs b4 he decided to ask me out for dinner.. Its been close to 2 yrs since we went out juz the two of us. Back den we were out as a lover but n0w as a fren. The feeling is so awkward. Wats more, hes attached. So he meet me behind her back lyk how he meet her behind my back once upon a time.

Memories of the past flashed back. The feeling sucks. Totally sucks.. I admit i miss him soo much. Till now i cant believe dat i meet up with him.. But im glad dat watever happen, was all forgotten. Though we juz meet a short while, i feel contented..

If you want the person u loves to be happy, den be happy n respect watever decision he/she made.

Till den.

2007-12-07T01:41:00.000+08:00

I am who i am.. No one can change me.. Even if i were to change, i change on my own accord. Not because someone ask me to. If i were to fall down, let me get up by myself. From dere i will learn from my mistake. Im totally sick or everything.. Y on earth m i still breathing.. I rather die den to make anione to be dissapointed in me especially my parents.. To brought me up till dis age is very tough fer dem. Damn tough.. Never once do i make dem proud of myself.. I always create trouble. Though i try very hard to change, things still remain the same.. Im such a total failure.

U guys can jolly well look down on me like my sis.. Yeah.. She despise me alot.. N i mean alot.. She dun treat me as an elder. What more as a sis. She find me filthy. I dun deserve her respect. Thats wat she always say. Well we can force ppl to like u isnt it.. Theres only 2 wishes that i want god to grant. 1st is to give happines n gd health to my parents n 2ndly to take me away from dis world so dat i wont be a burden to anione especially to my parents.. I juz keep praying about it everyday. Till den.

*ps. pa, ma forgive me for watever mistakes i have done. Im juz a normal human being which make mistakes. No one is perfect. No matter how u humiliate, degraded n look down on me, i will always love u. Thankz pa n ma.

2007-12-06T17:00:00.000+08:00

This house has been so empty eversince one by one left.. wats left now is juz me n my sis.. 1st is my dad where he's been hospitalised. Followed up by my mum goin fer haj.. N now, its my bro.. Juz came back from sending him off to Pulau Tekong where he have to undergo his national service for 2 yrs.. Im sad coz im abit close to my bro den my sister. Me n my sis juz cant get along very well.. I juz dun noe wats gonna happen in times to come.. Right now os im havin crisis with my dad.. Nt even me dat he vent his anger on but to my aunt too.. i have no say. Its better fer me to juz keep mum. Whom shud i turn too now? Lifes getting difficult as days pass by. I juz dun noe wat to do.

This week has been the lousy week ever.. Every bad things fall dis week.. I dun noe wat more unlucky things are coming my way.GOD, im giving things up n leave everythings in ur hands. Im outta herre..

2007-11-30T13:22:00.000+08:00

What i wanna put up in this entry is about my life... basically my meaningless life.. I been brought up in a moderate lifestyle.. Truly blessed with a wonderful parents.. I will get watever i want.. Not onli mine but my siblings too. They will try way n means to fulfill our needs.. I couldn't ask for more.. Is like give n take but i tend to take advantage of it.. My dad he use to work as a civil servant for 30 over years.. But his health didnt permit him to work animore longer due to his illness.. He have been in n out the hospital every now n den. My mom is another important ppl in my life.. She work as a packer but den since the company is goin thru some financial stuff, my mom will onli work once or twice a week.. Therefore our family expenses is very tight.. Thank god dat wen my dad retired the other time , he received sum money.. With the money dat dad receive, he decided to bring mom to haj.. That was my mom dreams to step her feet to the holy place from young. But den few days b4 they r supposed to go for haj, my dad had to be admitted to the hosp. My mom n some of my relatives talk to the doctor to consent my dad to be discharged but den the doctor dissaprove of it. My dad had a mild heart attack the day he supposed to go for an op. He fainted n onli regain concious at nite. Wen he wake up, he told evrione who is presene dat he allow my mom to go to the haj without him.. He cried.. He noe that he cant go.. In the end my mom went alone.. I knoe its a hard decision for dem to make. Maybe its god will dat my father cant follow along..

The day come for my mom to go.. I noe she cant bear to leave my dad. The day she had to go she visit my dad b4 she went for haj.. Dad was proud dat he is sending my mom to the haj which is oso my mum dreams. N i knoe hes sad coz he cant be dere. After my mom visit dad, she cant stop crying. Even at the airport too.. Wen i visited dad after sending mom off. Dad said dat he 4get to feed my mom. N he keep asking wat was my mom doin at that point of time. I reli miss her soo much. Eversince shes gone, i felt soo motherless.. I juz dun noe wat to do wen shes not around. Im to dependant to her. I always pray dat shes doin all fine dere..

N yeah, one of my fren go for haj too.. Same flight as my mum. Im sad n truly sorie dat i didnt bid him goodbye.. I hope dat hes doin fine too.. I miss him n my mom loads.. Looking foeward for their return soo badly.

My laziness has overcome me very badly.. N due to that i have not been attending classes.. Gonna receive a letter from sch pretty soon. Im like oreadi left far behind.. I need to buck up. Seriously i dun want to repeat 6 more mths.. I can go bonkers. Nt onli sch but fer my car prac too.. walauweh.. I reli dun noe wat to do fer me to change. My level of determination is soo bad... I reli need help from anione pretty badly.

I guess all dis fer now.. Will update wenever im free aight.. toodles..

*ps. i miss mama n him badly *sobs*

2007-11-18T18:22:00.000+08:00

here i am at home. doin nuting.. forever feeling bored. got nowhere to go. i want to study but deres no one to coach me. yesterday went to far east to support the karmasutra ft rage butts off comp.. i was surprised for their good performance.. keep up the good works guys!!! =) after dat comp is over, me,azie, lyn n shameir head down to cahaya fer our late dinner.. the food we ate was not that nice like b4.. supposely we plan to drop by fiza workplace.. called her n she say shes not werking..

so last min plan, we decide to roam at clark quay.actuali b4 settling down at clark quay, shameir decide to go to chijmes but den the carpark entry is 9 buck.. so ex.. so we change to clark quay.. we went to the coffee club fer our desserts.. had the fruit fondue.. nice.. i loike..n nt fergeting the ice passion tea top with vanilla ice cream n a swiss mushroom melt..wohoo pitam.. b4 ordering shameir gtg n left us the ladies.. we talk n talk n it reaches midnite.. how time flew soo fast..

ok i gtg fer now.. will update pretty soon n to lernie n alif, i will link u guys soon too.. sorie.. im in a rush rite now.. till den toodles..

2007-10-30T00:36:00.000+08:00

harloo.. im back fer updates.. n im posting up sum pictures.. but sum is too old as in during the fasting month.. went fer break-fast with my ex ccss.. sum pics is the raya pics with my family n frens.. hope i didnt bore u guys with all the pics.. well b4 i end with the pixies, i think i update abit ok..

well during the fasting i was working at a factory.. nite shift.. so whenever i reach home, i went straight to bed, wake up a few hrs ltr juz nice to be at work on time.. so like dat, i dun reli have time online-ing.. after werk end, bz with hari raya preparation n oso my car practical.. so far im doing great fer my car pract.. wakakaka.. can wait for the time where i will be seating at the drover seat.. wohoo..

next, raya came.. raya dis yr was ok lah.. wat i mean is, i dun reli feel the excited-ness to celebrate raya dis year.. well maybe im growing n raya dun reli much to me.. hahakz.. after 2 days of raya, holidays r over n its back to sch.. but in 2 weeks onli i onli attend like total 3 days.. hahakz.. i noe its pretty bad.. dun knoe lah.. feel so lazy to wake up in the morning n i feel lyk its still sch holidays.. hahakz.. wats more my timetable dis time end like ard 1.. half of the day.. n i usually wake up ard the 3 quarter of the day... hahakz.. im soo lazy bum-bum ah..

i cant waste any time animore.. i did reali bad for my previous exam.. now wen the new semester is on n the teacher juz teach a new thing, i wasnt dere.. damn i miss alot of thing n i mean reli aloot.. i reli need to buck up..lyk seriously.. ala ni semua smgt seminit.. hahakz..

i guess i be ending my rant pretty soon.. have to sleep early so i will reach school early.. got car pract sum more in the afternoon..walauweh.. dis friday , my class is having sum bbq thingy.. hahakz.. soo cant wait for it.. k lah till den.. enjoy the pixies.. toodles.. =)

ok dats all folks.. =)

2007-10-04T03:22:00.000+08:00

wen i was lying on my bed juz now, suddenly i feel lyk i want to update dis humble blog of mine.. now went i already log in, my mind went blank n i dun noe wat to update.. so i guess i update tmrw ok..toodles..

2007-09-22T22:16:00.000+08:00

i miss my freaking keyboard soo much.. at last.. was busy working the past few days.. work was ok2 onli.. u can meet all kind of people dere.. lucky dat i onli work dere during the sch hols.. ahackz.. i work the nite shift so wen i reach home, i will straight went to sleep, wake up n off to work.. no life at all.. sumtimes due to the whole body ache, i cant even get to sleep.. so todae my off day, i sleep the whole day thru.. ahackz.. now waiting fer azie to come back from geylang.. hehe.. im missing my crazy chaps, art n all my siao ting tong fren out dere.. one of my off days, im goin to meet dem up.. =)

sumtimes i rather not to having any off days den to sit at home.. yikes.. how i loathe it soo much.. got to do dis, do that.. been shout n nag here n dere.. how irritating it is.. n wats more not being respected at all.. lyk fcuk.. grrr.. in few week times, work will be over, fasting will be over, holidays will be over.. soo fast seh but will be raya oreadi..wohoo.. actually i dun feel any excited-ness fer hari raya.. dun knoe y.. i onli have one outfit fer dis yr.. gonna get one more.. hehe..

klah all dis fer now.. will update wen im free aight.. toodles..

2007-09-16T02:37:00.000+08:00

how my heart ache upon seeing the pic.. but all i knoe dat to see sum1 u love to be happy, we have to be happy with watever decision dey make.. does love make the whole go around?? hmmphh.. at this moment, alot of emotions r mixed up.. my head hurts pretty badly. i dun wish to pour it to anione. i juz need to be alone..
till den toodles. b4 i go
SLAMAT BERPUASA.

2007-09-12T03:17:00.000+08:00

IM A BETRAYER. I FLIP ARD STORIES JUZ TO COVER MY FCUKING BIG ASS. AFTER 12 YEARS DEN YOU SEE MY TRUE COLOURS.WATS MORE?????? OUT WITH IT.. IM WASHING MY HANDS OFF THIS MATTER. DO WATEVER YOU THINK IS GOOD. I HAVE NO MORE SAY.

2007-09-03T21:19:00.000+08:00

due to boredom, here i am updating.. sch was fine juz now.. 0ne project done so left with one more n after dat i can relax oreadi.. well the sch hols is next week.. really cant wait coz i will be working.. my holds wont be soo bad n i can earn sum kachingss.. n beside dat, my hols will be fill with my practical.. hahakz..

on sat morning went to visit mr. dentist with mum n dad.. my gum easily bleed ah n its due to lack of fruits n veggies.. next went to the wet market.. bought fish, prawns n veggies... hahakz.. den have our lunch b4 heading to joo chiat..
at nite meet my crazy chaps till late nite.. fiza n azlina is missing.. kalau tak dah full force.. hehe..
sunday noon headed to the cemetery.. 1stly it was scorching hot den suddenly it pours.. n wanna noe sumting, 1stly my bro nearly slip but lucky him he didnt fall..haha.. i laugh so loud dat i can wake the dead up.. hehe.. den my sis fall n her dress n pants its dirty with muds.. hehe.. dis one is so funny dat me, my mum n my bro cant stop laughing.. hahakz.. after dat we had our dinner at teck whye.. next home sweet home..

so that was how i spent my weekends.. pretty boring rite but minus off wen i meet my crazy chaps.. hehe.. will be meeting my darling art tmrw..wohoo.. gonna bring her t can cafe.. ok i gotta go on doin my project..till den.. toodles.. =)

2007-08-31T13:52:00.000+08:00

juz reach home from sch n den to lunch..lunch at s11.. was damn full dat wen i reach home, i throw everything out..dats my everyday habit.. i knoe its not good but den i will only feel good if i throw up.. hahakz..im weird i knoe dat.. yesterday was a sinful day.. hahakz.. wen to big mac to chill with my fave hang out peeps.. 1st wen i reach dere, i was soo hungry but b4 dat i had dis very terrible stomach ache..but its not that i want to shit .. i juz dun knoe y.. i pop in alot of pills but it dun works too..so wen i reach dere, i bought food from kfc.. eat n eat suddenly i feel like throwing up which i did literally.. hahakz.. i continued to eat a bit more den smoke..

den come lernie.. she brought chocolate cookies.. my god, is freeeeaaaaaking nice ok.. she bought it at carrefour..im so gonna go dere n grab that sinful cookies plus its cheap..big cookies n deres alot in one box.. muai oiii... den came azlina with this chocolate brownie cheesecake n guess wat.. its damn fcuking super duper sedap nak mampus hingga jilat jari kaki aku ok..the jilat jari kaki sound eeuwww... hehe.. but oh god, its super duper suger mamadu nice ok.. till i get pinched by khai fer eating it soo much.. its soo sinful ok.. the chocolate cookies n the brownie cheesecake..walau kan pitam ok.. thankz azlina n lernie fer the sinful cookies n brownie.. terima kasih daun keladi, jgn lupa bawa lagi.. hehe.. i knoe i sound crazy.. hehe.. but i didnt throw up after dat but at home..hehe..

after all that sinful food, me n sum of the rest went to 711.. wait fer fiza pay to go in b4 we headed home. well fer juz now, got drawing test.. how i reli hate it... can do abit ah but mostly my frens help me.. if the real exam how?? i can pitam dere ok.. hahakz.. i feel bored.. wanna go out but den i want to watch sutun 1st.. hehe maybe after dat go out.. cum one is friday.. b4 ramadhan ,enjoy life abit.. hehe.. ok im sleepy, sleep awhile den watch tv den bath n off i go.. k tata..

2007-08-30T01:04:00.000+08:00

u wanna knoe wat im feeling ryte now?? im feeling soo lonely.. im feeling neglected n im feeling that im left on the shelves.. i feel soo empty too.. i dun knoe juz wat to do.. so yesterday had my 4th prac.. n seriously im starting to love driving though im always nervous.. hahakz.. n i went out till tampines safra dere.. mind u.. im the one driving n onli god noes how i feel.. overall, i reli had fun n lucky me though my instructor is like one cheekopek chinese uncle, watever he teaches me is all stick in my head.. hehe..

so after my prac, meet up with lernie, fairus n his frens.. got sum problem but after sumtimes, things go the way we wanted it to be.. had our late dinner b4 slacking at al-majlis.. play uno cards, sheesha-ing n chilling ard.. coolness i loike.. n i did have fun.. ard 0ne a.m we make a move..take cab home.. reach home cant get to sleep den i meet sum1 n slack till 5.. was damn shagged n tired but i cant get to sleep..hahakz..

juz now class end early.. after dat had lunch n sit at the student hub till 4.. was so sleepy dat i sleep in the bus. hahakz.. n the rest of the day i spent at home. haiz.. so bored ok.. tmrw will be in sch the whole day.. im juz starting to hate sch.. k all dis fer nw.. i knoe is a lame post. *sigh* toodles..

2007-08-27T22:09:00.000+08:00

Today is a very sucky day.. Things dun go pretty well.. i didnt come fer the test.. suddenly i dun feel lyk it.. im starting to hate sch.. damn.. the mood is not dere.. rite after class end, i went back straight without bidding anyone gd-bye.. i juz prefer to be alone.. i dun noe how will i fair in my studies.. though i been studying almost everyday fer my upcuming test.. the confidence of doin my best is not dere.. im in dilemma rite now. i feel lyk quitting sch.. seriously, no point continuing n wasting my time.. but i noe no matter in wat way i talk to my mum about dis, she will die2 disapprove of my decision. tell me wat i shud do.. i dun want to disappoint her but den i juz cant cope..

aniwae will be having my 4th prac tmrw b4 i stop fer a mth n continue during the fasting mth.. i juz cant wait for the day i will be sitting in the driver seat.. actuali im feeling bored rite now..
do nuting from juz now accept that i lay on my bed , off the lights n be surrounded by the candles.. dats wat i do everytime im home.. beside doin the housework i will lock myself in my room.. u might say i shud get a life rite.. ahackz.. my life is ever boring..

i rant enuff nonsense... gonna read sum books.. till den. toodless..

2007-08-27T00:57:00.000+08:00

Sorry.. its been weeks since i updated my blog.. plain lazy u can say.. i didnt noe wat to update oso actuali.. new skin.. credits to my sis fer helping me out.. been bugging her for months to help me n at last she did.. thankz gendut!! well diz days, i feel tired so easily.. sumtimes i will spent the whole day sleeping.. sleep like a log.. if nvr sleep, i went out to chill with my mates..

will be having my test every monday.. die.. i got alot of catching up to do.. i been practicing my cooling load every now n den.. the qn is all the same.. practice n practice till i get it right.. diz is juz the thoery part,nt yet the practical as in drawing.. that one more chialat..hahakz..

fasting mth is ard the corner..god how time flies very fast.. after raya follow by hari raya haji.. where me n my siblings will spent our hari raya haji alone.. my parents off to mecca.. pray to god fer their safety especially my dad.. may they have a smooth journey over dere..

i will stop here.. my head is spinning.. i need a rest badly.. tmrw got test sum more.. aiyo.. til den toodles.. =)

2007-08-12T01:33:00.000+08:00

Back fer updates!!! well juz reach home.. early juz now, went to job interview at kelantan lane.. its an office job.. after ard 2 hr like dat, the interview ended.. well sadly to say im not interested in that job.. its so called lyk sales.. n mind u the product aint cheap at all.. it can go up till thousands.. its actually a health products to benefit others and in other way promoting stuffs. i have work in dat line b4 few yrs back n i reli regret.. so i guess i be goin to search fer other jobs.

after interview, we went for our dinner at raffles hospital banquet..meet shameir dere.. supposely meeting up with lyn n imah.. but last min, lyn had a stomache cramp n our plan cancelled..after dat we headed to velocity coz shameir wanted to buy this stussy bag which on offer.. wen we reached dere, the shop as closed.. walk ard n i vomit alot todae.. dun knoe y.. since we go no plan after dat, we headed to united square starbucks.. fyi, i juz went to starbucks yesterday with art.. ahackz.. took bus 21 home.. in the bus me azie n shameir play uno card till shameir misses his bus stop.. the game still comtinue even after we alight n we continue the game under the void deck.. soo fun lah the game.. n after dat me n azie parted ways with shameir...

n oh ya, yesterday meeting up with art is enjoyable.. meet her at city hall coz we wanna go eat at marina square.. b4 meeting her, i bought her a mud pie at this coffee cafe which i ferget the name of it.. super duper nice.. meet her n we headed to kenny rogers fer our dinner.. yum2.. but i didnt finish my hot sides (the mashed potato n macaroni cheese) *slurps* after dinner, wen walk ard marina square.. did'nt buy anything .. after tired of walking, treat her to starbucks.. we nvr fail to visit starbucks everytime we meet up ..ahackz.. chill awhile b4 we bid each other gdbye.. be meeting her again next week.. *im luving it *

i been goin out almost everyday.. n im goin broke pretty soon.. god dammit.. tmrw have no idea whether i be goin out or not.. maybe yes, maybe.. klah im damn shagged.. gonan have a good bath n its lala land time.. till den..toodles.. *yawn*

2007-08-10T14:21:00.000+08:00

10 August will be the day which i will nvr ever ferget in my life.. time flew so fast and its lyk a yr had pass with realizing it.. i thank god for giving me strength to carry on with life all this while.. wish him yesterday n he duns seem to welcome my voice. nah im fine with it.. ppl change dun dey.. but sum change fer the better n sum change fer the worst..

yesterday, my day was spent outside..as usual.. actuali wanna watch the fireworks at city hall but den my fren who have oreadi reached dere earlier warn us not to go there coz its so packed dat she cant get herself out from the crowd.. so we change plan n head to bugis.. had dinner at tong seng n after dinner, i heard the sound of fireworks.. i was franctically searching from where the fireworks are.. but lucky i got saw a bit..hahakz.. afta dinner we went sheesha-ing.. now den i knoe how to smoke sheesha.. hahakz.. slenger..

todae will be going out.. meeting my darling art.. goin to eat n shop.. hahakz.. im grooowing.. reli cant wait to meet her.. orite2.. i guess i be going now.. if not late meet her.. til den ..toodles.. =)

2007-08-07T00:17:00.000+08:00

im missing alot of people badly.. sudeenly i miss their company soo much.. but i dun blame dem coz they r bz with ther sch, work n stuff.. but im glad dat i be meeting sum of dem pretty soon n dat is my lovely art..

miss her alot.. she was dere fer me during ite amk time.. wen i was down n no one to turn to, she will nvr fails to be dere n cheer me up.. its very comfortable to confide with her in everything. the ring dat i bought 4 u n the best friend necklace dat u bought fer me is a symbol of our friendship.. the ring will always be worn on my finger.. wherever i go n watever i do, i bring it with me.. be meeting her dis friday.. yipee.. lots of catching up to do ok gurl..

not forgotten my crazy chaps which i have noe fer a loooooong time.. its more den half of my age.. we go thru our ups n downs a couple of time but we still hanging strong.. each of us have different attitude n characteristic... but it doesnt stop or deres no barrier dat stop us from being close together.. the picnic outing dat we use to plan during our secondary sch days is still fresh in my mind.. the usual monthly or weekly meet up every weekend which we will spent together is where we catch things up.. sum i knoe dem lyk since im 7 yrs old.. n during our sec days where we all r taking step by step to become to a teenage n now to beutiful n gorgeous ladies (minus me off of coz). the partner in crime, having fun in each other company n nvr gave up with each other is wat i will nvr ever ferget bout dem.. now everyone has grown up.. bz with their sch n werk.. all of dem have change to be a better, mature n meaningful ppl.. right gurls..

n to meerah, i miss u alot too.. been a long time since we meet up.. bz with ur commitment with work n ur bf kan.. one day we shall meet up wen u r free ok.. u too have change to a better person rite.. im so happy fer u.. keep it up..

friends do play a part in ur life.. choose ur friend wisely.. accept den for who dey r.. well i love all my frens alot.. doesnt matter if dey r my old or new friend.. hehe.. hmm k den diz entry will be bout my lovely frens actuali.. now its time fer me to hit the sack.. will update more wen im free again.. toodles.. =)

2007-08-05T16:02:00.000+08:00

Today is another boring day.. will nt be goin out i guess.. mum is reli pissed off with me wen i come back late yesterday.. but cmon lah till wen u want to control my freedom.. im all grown up.. i noe wat is right n wat is wrong.. n u shud jolly well noe dat im not the kind of person who love to stick her ass at home.. i been asking for my freedom lyk since 6 yrs back.. but i understand dat im still young..but after 6 yrs, dun tell me dere is no changes.. n wen im abit mischievious, u keep telling me dat u goin to bring me to sum 'doctor' to treat me.. wtf!! dats all crap n bullshit lah.. im a teenage, its the time where i want to enjoy myself n noe the world slowly.. i bet during ur younger days, u done much more den me.. dun u say dat i treat dis house as a hotel.. if i treat dis house as a hotel, i do watever i loike n i wont dont even a single housework chores.. not even one lah.. wat do i get wen im at home.. ur non stop nag n argue with sis which will be forever.. deres no peace at all.. if i sit in the room u ask me to come out.. come out for wat, hear u nag????? arent u tired shouting n nagging?? i noe u r doing ur duty as our parents but dun go overboard.. n dun control brother either.. his all grown up.. though his a bit slow, he knoe wat is right n wrong.. let he come out n face the world.. dun stop him.. sumtimes i pity him.. hes a great bro.. hes reli done his part of responsibilty as a brother soo much.. n i noe u guys r aware of dat..

wen im at home, i feel so pressurized n stress.. damn stress.. arrghhh.. *breathe in, breathe out* ok i drop bout that subject for now.. well yesterday had a lot of fun.. its juz the three if us.. me azie n lyn.. supposely to drop by fiza workplace but her workplace is at town area.. thot at cityhall.. change plan n we head back to bugis.. shop n shop.. each of us bring sumting back.. hehe.. great sale here n dere.. lucky cannot fit me.. if all i want fits me den i will buy everything.. hehe..next we head down to marina square as lyn is searching fer sandals.. tired of walking ard n at the same time our stomach is making noises inside, we went to eat at simpang bedok.. though the food we order looks little, but we were dam full aftermath.. time flew so fast n its nearly midnight.. so me n azie bid farewell to lyn coz shes taking the cabbie home.. next i part with azie coz im meeting zai n lernie.. chill at zai place, watch back to future at HBO n sundal bolong.. afterall my day outside is good..

aniwae i ferget to add into my entry bout my trip to london weight management.. hahakz.. i get it for free coz i enter sum contest.. i brought azlina along coz she off on dat day.. dat place is damn far sia..located at tiong bahru plaza.. we spent 2 hrs plus dere n at the end of the session i dun find all dat worth it.. lucky is free of charge plus we receive sum cream.. they keep pyscho-ing us to take up their package..but not worth it lah.. at the end of the day, i lose 600g n azlina lose 100g.. hahakz.. i might as well go on diet n exercise rather den splurging my money on that slimming program..

all diz fer todae, gonna go to the shop awhile n buy un-necessary stuffs.. dat me wen im on stress.. toodless..

2007-08-03T23:42:00.000+08:00

harloo peeps, im herre fer a lil update.. nuting much reli happen fer the past few days.. missing alot of my frens.. n i miss dem lyk crazy okay.. be meeting the crazy chaps tmrw. wohoo its confirmed..
but sadly azlina not joining coz shes werking.. n next week friday , i be meeting my sweetie pie dat is art.. gonna go fer dinner n catch things up.. hearts all of u soo much .. * wOhOoooooo * well i've been dragging my feet to sch lately.. i will be damn lazy n tired to wake up n get ready fer sch.. see lah laziness is overcoming me soon..

yesterday after sch went to have dinner with my classmate n search fer our white polo tee to wear during national day next week.. ahackz.. plan that everyone will buy the polo tee from giordano.. cool.. i loike.. after which chubby n bintang has to head back home whereas me, malik n fairuz went to bookstore.. aper tah penyakit dorg, tiba2 minat nk baca buku.. done with books, i treat den to swensen ice- cream.. *slurps* im so in love with the butterscotch almond.. very niceee.... gonna have it soon again.. juz now went to tm n century with dem again.. hahakz.. want to shop but nuting attracts me.. actuali want to buy pillow but den think back, im goin to the book store again which kind of leceh..so i drop the subject of buying n pikul-ing that 2 pillows.. meet elly while otw to food culture... den she ask go smoke with her whick i accompany her till my frens r done with the dinner.. hahakz.. sorie.. long tyme never see her.. been mths n mths.. catch sum things up.. talk abit bout the past.. miss all that.. the 'chapsa gurls' .. go lepak n do sum crazy stuff.. hahakz.. dat was all in the past.. how time flies.. now each n everyone is bz with work, sch n stuff..hmm...

i think i be ranting too much.. ok rite now im goin to watch 'ALONE'.. bought the pirated cds yesterday.. hehe.. lastly 'its' his bdae next week.. shud i juz wish him or shud i buy him sumting??? hmmm.. so till den will update bout tmrw outing.. tOodless.. =)

2007-07-31T17:25:00.000+08:00

Im here 4 update.. juz got back home from sch.. damn shagged though there is nuting that I ‘ve done at sch beside, doin sum drawing, playing a lil of Frisbee n floorball.. hahakz.. n after that had kfc lunch treated by my lovely class advisor.. was damn full.. I have no idea y she decide to treat the whole class to kfc.. the whole meal.. struck lottery I guess.. ahackz.. tmrw will be going to ite simei again to help out for their track n field event.. god.. must be so boring again.. n its such a waste of time.. I might as well went to sch n study.. I got leave form n I can take advantage of it by not turning up fer sch n the ite simei event.. hahakz *evil laugh*

well I guess I be goin to the ite simei if those who supposed to be goin are going.. den afta dat maybe goin with dem.. but no idea where.. n I want to watch ALONE.. many ppl say its nice.. I want to watch but no kaki.. haiz.. if its not a horror or scary movie I already watch It alone.. damn.. who is kind hearted to accompany me????

right now im down with stomach flu.. aiyah.. how I hate it soo much.. this is wen I be wasting a lot of tissue box n having sleepless nite.. hmm Im feeling excited n sooo cant wait fer this sat.. if deres no obstruction or whatever, will be going out with two of my crazy chaps.. gonna shop n shop.. maklumlah dah dpt duit.. hehe.. and after shop, we be having a big dinner but dun knoe where.. hehe..

actually my ex ite amkian classmate, doll is having her bdae party at tanah merah country club.. since not many ppl not goin, den im nnot goin oso.. n wats more I dun knoe where that place is despite many ppl already tell me where it is.. im such a gong2 sotong sumtimes.. hahakz..ok im feeling so bored right now.. wat shud I do?? Till den.. tata.. =)

the bumping n re:mix

2007-07-30T01:11:00.000+08:00

Howell im back fer sum update.. well yesterday I was out to the re:mix comp held at youth park.. supporting fer my peeps whose joining.. so b4 headed to youth park, me, lala n nina went fer our lunch.. bump into lotsa ppl.. firstly bump into bintang.. hahakz.. shes with janggut.. but she keep denying dat dey r out together.. jgn nk tipu ok.. hahakz.. rahsia bocor kan…wakaka.. of enuff of dat,next after our lucnch, lernie ask to meet her at cineleisure cheers, so went I was out from the cine, guess who I saw????? I saw my ex.. wat a small world.. I noe he saw me but he juz ignore as if im a stranger.. I was quite shocked went I saw him.. god.. next went Im otw to the cine tolet at lvl 2, I saw him again.. he walk pass me.. god.. my heart was beating reli fast.. I cant bear to see him with other gurls.. onli god knoes how I feel.. damn.. n went I was about to enter the toilet, I turn to see him n I saw him stopping looking at me.. god, god, god.. that’s not the end.. after im done, I went to meet the rest outside cine went I saw him smoking n he walk pass me to.. mcm nk tarik je tangan die.. ahackz..melampau..

last time as in after our break up, I keep praying dat I will bump him outside.. but luck was not my side..the one who bump into him is my frens..not once but couple of times.. n I will go lyk y issit always dem who saw him but not me.. wat nina say its true.. god is fair.. for everthing happens, dere must be a reason behind it.. now that I dun want to bump into him, the otherwise happen.. god is fair.. =) wateve it is, I put that aside n have fun watching re:mix..

Though R.A.G.E dun win anything, im proud to say that they r not losing hope.. I knoe they can do better...so cheer up mates.. I will nvr stop supporting u guys aight.. afta the event is over, went back to tampines n eat at macd.. eat, chill, talk n home sweet home..

Today I be lazing at home onli.. nt goin out.. I cant wait fer Tuesday coz I’ll be collecting my bursary money.. wohoo.. can shop n shop but at the same time must give to my mum n I must save sum of it.. it’s a must.. k den all diz fer noe.. gonna get ready fer sch tmrw.. till den ..toodles.. =)

Im Back.. =)

2007-07-27T00:58:00.000+08:00

Pheww.. At last I got to update dis dusty and rusty blog.. oh god its been quite a long time since I update.. hahakz.. its either I have no time to update, too lazy to update or I dun knoe wat to update.. ok wateva liyana.. nuting much happen actuali.. my everyday lifestyle is lyk all the same everytime.. it will oways be sch, hang out and home.. if not, I will be out..

Lets start with sch.. sch was ok but I hate the drawing lesson.. its reli sucks coz I dun knoe how to draw n its so troublesome.. so whenever I had that drawing lesson, I will be the last one to finish.. I try to cope with it but I cant..n its always resolved by the help of my frens.. theory is much more better.. I loike.. n I shud reli count myself lucky dat my classmates r all that I can rely on.. projects after projects.. n one of the project which r long overdue has not even started yet.. n its about entrepeneurship.. god, I reli have no idea y we have to learn bout that.. I got much more better things to concentrate on.. got no choice so we still have to do..

and diz week is wat im looking forward to.. from my btt, rage busking n their re:mix

competition.. I thank god that I pass my btt.. yippee.. im scared dat im goin to failed, coz sum ppl told me that they fail 3 to 7 times fer their btt.. I was kinda nervous at 1^st.. im happy dat I can do it.. thank god.. next up will be my practical oreadi.. I soo cant wait to have my license in hand.. I cant wait to drive but im scared of getting lost n wen the car is down.. ahackz.. im scaring myself actuali.. and diz few days, I been cuming home late n the reason is I went to watch movie after sch till nyte time with my classamte.. hahakz.. I oreadi watch the ‘CONDEMNED’ n ‘CAPTIVITY’.. great show actuali.. go n catch it if u dun believe me.. ahzkcz..

right now, I feel so lonely.. I have no one to talk to.i have no one to share my prob with n lots more.. for now, all I want is peace.. I get no peace at all especially at home.. dats the reason y I always go out n come home late wen practically everyone is sleeping.. I feel so stressfull.. I have no idea wat to do.. oh well I gtg now.. bro wanna use the comp.. till den..

2007-05-20T17:23:00.001+08:00

BROKEN PROMISES

You said you loved me
You said you needed me
You said I was the world
You said you would do anything
to keep me by your side
I believed all this was true
Until the night I cried
You promised me your love
You promised me your life
You promised me we would be together always
Broken promises is what I found they would be
Why? Tell me why did you lie to me?
I would have given you the world
I would have given you my life
Why am I going through all this pain and strife
My heart was yours to hold
How could you have been so cold?
My life will go on without you
My heart will eventually heal
I just wish I could show you
exactly how I feel
You broke promises
You lied
I cried
I also died inside
Still I love you
Still I need you
and still I don't want anyone new
Someday I hope you will look back on this
and understand it is I you will miss
You meant the world to me
and you broke my heart
Now I sit and cry alone in the dark.

2007-05-20T15:13:00.000+08:00

oh god..i cant believe it.. m i dreaming???
tell me dat i am.. he called..yeah he did..
he still remember my number.. he still remember me..
i knoe im not dreaming.. he left sum miss calls..
i was shocked n froze.. did he reli miss call me..??
call him back.. n wen that receiver pick up, there it was..
the voice that i be yearning n waiting to hear.. its lyk a dream come true..
i keep dreaming of him almost everyday.. the more i want to forgot him,
more things happen dat reminds me of him. especially wen he keep appearing in my dreams..
i try to get thru him once at home, but hes not in.. n suddenly he called..
i cried..but i dun knoe wat im feeling.. happy, sad or wat..? i have no one to talk to..
coz no one will understand.. i will talk to myself, to the soft toys, to the cat..
i misses him alot dat i will fall sick.. i will cry everytime im alone..
the voice.. oh god.. its lyk the 1st time we talk.. sadly we only talk awhile..
its not enuff..it will never satisfied me..
hes happy.. im happy to see him happy..
though one year is goin to pass..
the memories cant be erased n i still cant get over it..
i feel so lonely.. though i go out, i still feel lonely.. n i feel so incomplete..
i feel dat sumting is missing..
i dun knoe where im heading to in life.. i feel so lost..
im suffering in silence..
im out..alone...

2007-05-11T08:51:00.000+08:00

hey peeps,
im back afta a long or shud i say suuupeer long m.i.a
wanted to update sum time back
but my comp choose to die on me at that veri moment..
i got lots n lots of stuff to talk about n oso sum pics to upload..
but sad to say i can onli update a lil coz im using the school comp..

well, alot of things n changes happen wen im gone..
one of dem is, i juz start my higher nitec at ite tamp..
i took up MEED course. school was fun..the class were ok..
the teacher is ok too n the frens r superb.. we click quite well..
we sumtimes hang out together..

actuli i gtg.. class ending.. will update soon..
till den.. toodles... =)

2007-02-11T04:01:00.000+08:00

its been a looong time since i didnt put up an entry.. laziness has overcome me.. hahakz.. sumtimes i dun knoe wat to update about.. my life?? is forever boring n i dun want to bore u guys.. well fer the past weeks, i been bz with werk..

but den , the past week that i werk ,i was lucky.. must said luck is reli by my side.. theres a time wen i went to ladies to change my uniform, i found a handphone in the cubicle.i thought that sum1 have left it behind.

1stly i didnt keep it straight awaycoz who knoe the owner come back to search fer the phone. 2ndly if i were to take it , i cant be blame as stealing coz i found dat fone not that i stole it right.. at last, wen i go out the cubicle, theres no one..thats mean the fone is mine!! hahakz.. its nokia 6233.. not bad.. i got 2 fone now.. hehe.. next afta a week past, i was from the toilet wen suddenly i saw sumting on the floor... guess wat its $$$$..

deres 5 pieces but its all lyk scattered ard.. i cant believe wat i saw.. did the money drop from the sky.. den diz lady walk pass the money n ask sum1 nearby whether its their money or not.. wen dey say the money doesnt belong to dem, she put back the money on the ground.. shocked right.. i thought she gonna keep it.. den next this guy pick up a receipt n read den he put back the receipt on the ground n walk away.. one more person who ignore the MONEY.. since no one want to to take the money, i pick up the money n act as if i want to give to my manager.. hahakz.. but im not soo stupid.. i put it inside my pocket lah.. n aniwae my manager its not in.. hahakz.. cool right.. its $42 dollars by the way.. but still money right.. dat one oso i nvr steal coz i think sum1 accidentally drop it.. so m i lucky or wat??

but u knoe , my manager once told me dis "easy come, easy go".. erm but does that term applied on wen i found it not steal it??? hmmm.. all i knoe is dat its juz my luck!

orite put that aside, u knoe wat i bought my hari raya kain oreadi.. damn early right.. i nooe.. it happen last week wen suddenly i ask my mum to go arab street.. she said its soo early but i reli dun lyk mengharapkan coz i knoe its soo early.. den the next day my mum wake me up damn early to but the kain..

n i was lyk ok, bathe quickly n off we go.. we stop by one shop n coincidentally my ex pri sch fren mum werking dere.. choose n choose i get wat i want.. wont tell u wats the colour fer now ok.. mum bought two sets n one fer my sis.. we get soo much discount n my fren mum gave us extra kain lyk example, we ask fer 3 meter, she gave us 4 meter ..extra one meter but den one meter can cost up to 35 bucks ok.. tsk3.. altogether we spent 300 buck juz fer the kain.. not incuded with the tailoring..

hmm.. did i rant soo much..? actuali i dun knoe wat more to update..maybe goin to sleep soon coz tmrw morning have amp programme.. hopefully its not cancelled again..ahackz.. k till den.. have a good day!

2007-01-31T04:24:00.000+08:00

hey, sorie fer nt updating.. been plain lazy to update nowadays.. lifes is pretty bored fer me..sumtimes wen i tynk back, i feel dat im wasting my time.. will i be the same me in let say 2 yrs time.. gosh, im turning 19 diz yr n 21 in 2yrs time.. time pass very fast huh.. i wonder wat i will be doin in yrs to cum..will i be sum1 useful or m i gonna be the same me..

maybe i gonna change my life.. soon im gonna be a new person..i dun wanna stay like the state i am inm now.. i juz have to have discipline n confident.. like wat he say b4, be sum1 dat ppl can look up for not to look down on.. dats true n im gonna work dat out.. but den right..its like smangat seminit je..hahakz..

howell, put dat aside.. all i knoe is dat im gonna work out fer wat i want to be in the future..no pain, no gain..

hahakz.. k2 all diz fer now coz i dun knoewat to write..

t0odles n have a great day peeps.. =)

2007-01-16T03:59:00.000+08:00

im damn bored.. saw diz tag post at frenster bulletin..since im bored, i decide to do it.. i post it in here n at the frester bulletin post.. if u guys r bored.. den do it.. no harm .. juz sum normal qns bout urself n pls note dat the no. of qn is not in random.. sorie hor..

aniwae wen out with my mates yesterday.. been sumtime since i meet up with dem especially si lyn biol.. 1stly went to meet shameir ,imah n azie n pet safari located at eastpoint.. shameir suddenly wanted to get himself a hamster.. b4 he bought the hamster, he preadi bought the stuff fer the hamster.. not onli one but he got himself 2 hamster.. damn cute.. one of it is injured.. poor lil hamster.. both of it r damn small n cute.. feel lyk biting it.. hehe.. imah getting one soon.. shud i or shudnt i.. wanna bought it fer my sis coz shes a hamster lover.. maybe not at the moment.. afta purchasing the hamster, we head back to shameir crib to send the hamster.. lol... he placed the two hamster in one fish tank dat he have.. place the saw dust, hang a bottle of water fer the hamster, its food n its toy stuff... lastly we placed the hamster in.. they keep running n running ard.. damn cuute.. afte we r done fer the hamster stuff, me imah n azie head to century square to have our dinner with lyn.. next we walk ard century square b4 we slack ard at big mac.. we talk n laugh lyk nobody bisnes.. basically dats wat happen yesterday.. todae nuting happen coz im werking.. klah b4 i talk alot of craps i end my entry herre.. t0oodless... =)

1: Name - NURUL LIYANA

2. Religion - ISLAM

3. Single/Taken - SINGLE

4. Zodiac – DRAGON

5. Male/Female – FEMALE

6. School – JUST GRADUATE..

7. bag – NOT SOO MUCH..

9. MSN Name – LEEYANA

10. Hair Color – DARK BROWN W HIGLIGHTS

12. Hair Long/Short – LONG

14. Eye Color – DARK BROWN

15. Health Freak – NOPE

16. Height – 1.65

17. Do you have a crush on someone? - NOPE

18. Do you like yourself? - NOPE

19. Braces - NOT FER THE MOMENT

21. Piercing - 1 NOSE, 3 ON RIGHT EAR N 5 ON LEFT EAR..22. Tattoo - NONE

23. Righty or Lefty - RIGHTY

___YOUR FIRSTS___
24. Surgery – NVR HAD SURGERY B4

25. First piercing - ERM SEC 1

26. First best friend – FILZA

27. First Award – SEC 1

28. First Sport You Joined – NETBALL

29. First pet – FISH

30. First Vacation – TANJUNG PINANG??? LOL !

31. First Concert - WEN I WAS 13

32. First love – 3 YRS BACK

___FAVOURITES___
33. Movie – HORROR OR ROMANTIC..

34. Favorite TV Show - MTV

35. Colour – PINK, PURPLE N BLACK..

36. Music – RNB, HIP HOP, REGGAETON N ETC..

39. Drink - COKE N ORANGE JUICE

41. Sport To Play - NETBALL
42. Favorite piece of clothing - ERM MY DOROTHY PERKINS LONG SLEEVE

43. Brand - NONE

44. What do you sleep with - MY BLANKET, BOLSTER , 2 BIG PILLOWS, 1 SMALL PILLOW N A HEART SHAPE CUSHION..

45. Favorite School – MY SECONDARY SCH.

46. Favorite Animal – HAMSTER

___CURRENTLY___
49. Im eating – NOPE

50. Im drinking – ERM KICKAPOO..

52. Im about to ring – NO ONE

53. Listening to – ARASH TEMPTATION

55. Waiting For – THE DAY IM GONNA LEAVE THIS WORLD.. =)

56. Watching - MTV

57. Wearing – SLEEPING PYJAMAS..

58. Want Kids? – YEAH ..WHO DOESNT.??

59. Want to Get Married? - YEAH, I DO!

60. Careers in Mind – NOT FER THE MOMENT..

___RANDOM___
68. Lips or Eyes - EYES!

69. Hugs or Kisses – BOTH!

70. Shorter or Taller- TALLER

72. Romantic, Spontaneous – ROMANTIC

73. nice stomach or nice arms – NICE STOMACH

74. Sensitive or Loud – BOTH!

75. Hook-up or Relationship - RELATIONSHIP..

76. Sweet or caring – BOTH!

77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? - NEITHER

___HAVE YOU EVER___
78. Kissed a Stranger - NOPE

79. Drank bubbles – NOPE

80. Lost glasses/contacts - NOPE

81. Ran Away From Home – COUPLE OF TIMES.. HAHAKZ..

82. Broken a bone – NOPE

83. Got an X-ray – NOPE

84. Broken Someones Heart – ONCE

87. Cried When Someone Died – ONLY MY LATE GRANDMA..

___DO YOU BELIEVE IN___
89. God – OF COURSE..

90. Miracles – ERM NOT TOO SURE

93. Aliens – DUN TYNK SO

94. Magic – ONLY IF I SEEN ONE..

95. Heaven – YEAH..

97. Sex on the first date - DUN TYNK SO

98. Kissing on the First Date – PECK ON THE CHEEK ITS OK..

99. Angels – DUN TYNK SO.

___ANSWER TRUTHFULLY___

100. Is there someone you want to bewith right now? - YEAH.. TRULY N BADLY BUT ITS IMPOSSIBLE.. =)

2007-01-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

oh gawd..im damn bored.. didnt do anything the whole day except fer eating, watch tv n play comp.. dats one of the reason y i dislike being at home coz i will not stop eating.. aargghhh.. damn it man.. how to lose weight lyk dis.. aniwae the reason y i didnt go out todae is because my mom told me dat my relatives is cumin n therefore i cant go out.. at last got to knoe dey r not cuming.. wth!!! my peeps ask me out n i decline now im stuck at home.. want to go out but den lyk too late oreadi..so nvm.. tmrw will stick my arse at home oso coz one of my aunt is cumin n its confirm..better be.. n i oso want to watch THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW.. i was it b4 at the cinema yrs back..its a good show.. u guys better catch it at tv at 7 pm channel 5.. two thumbs up fer the shop..

oh well, beside being bored, im broke too.. haiz.. juz got my pay last week n now all finish.. niwae i feel lyk i want to work full time ah.. i have no interest in schooling animore.. i want to occupy myself with work n nuting else.. my recent work relli suck.. lotsa problem n it involved me.. wats more im the victim.. being accused with things dat i NEVER DO. not once diz thing happens but 3 TIMES ..mind you n im still holding on.. will search for jobs soon.. im tired of that job oreadi..

problems arise everyday.. im sick of living.. no peace at werk neither at home t0o.. if im at home, n im soo bored, i will popped in alot of pills n drank half or 3 quarter of cough syrup.. call me crazy, call me insane.. i did dat so i can have a sleep.. n wen i sleep i will dream of stupid things..wake up sweating n msging my frens weird things.. if im outside, i will rather not talk much.. will go out alone or werk.. haiz.. sumtimes i will take the wrong bus to my destination..lol.. i have a boring life routine.. i have no idea how long my life will be like diz.. im sooo sick of it..

dad is hospitalised again last week .. but hes been discharged but then hes gonna be hospitalised again next week sat.. his heart is failing.. n the surgeons is gonna operate him.. n guess wat?? my dad gonna be a guinea pig coz sum docs from different countries is cuming down to watch the oeration coz my dad is lyk the 1st person in singapore to undergo such operation.. sum sort lyk dat.. how i wish dat i cud gave my heart to my dad.. lyk in the movie 'my heart'. i dun mind.. its useless of me being in diz world.. i rather give it to my dad so dat he can live much more longer.. haiz..

klah i rant so much todae so now i wanna mop the kitchen floor, if not my mum will start buzzing lyk an irritating bee.. tkcr peeps..

2007-01-13T04:36:00.000+08:00

Forever Loving You

I love you more than you will ever know,
My love for you will never go,
I know you don't believe these words I say,
But I think of you all night and day.

Although we cannot be together,
My love for you will be forever,
It's so hard for me to say good-bye,
Although I know I have to I begin to cry.

I wish you felt the way I do,
Because I'd do anything to be with you,
Also I just want you to see,
That I'll always be here if you ever need me.

2006-12-27T02:14:00.000+08:00

im been missing hime lately..dun ask y.. i will cry to sleep thinking of him everyday though im tired from work..i dun knoe y but suddenly the memory of the past came back..every little things remind me of him.. i reli hate that feeling..i dun dare to share my probs to my friends coz i dun want dem to say im stupid.. i juz kept to myself..let everything eat my heart out..the wound is still dere.. i try to have this negative thinking bout him so dat i will forget him easily.. but den i was wrong.. it dun turn out the way i expected..hmm, lets drop bout that subject..

aniwae, went out with azie on christmas eve.. juz the two of us.. its been quite sumtime dat i went out to have fun.. went to meet my former manager at town.. droy by at his new store,.. gosh miss him soo much.. was sad wen i heard that he have to transferred out few months back.. hes promoting soon.. gd fer him.. next, azie brought me to eat fried mars bar.. ok i knoe lyk i been left far behind.. i been searching for it for a long time.. n guess wat.. its so yummylicious.. i loike.. those who havent eat it b4, u better try it.. n i bet u want it more.. hahakz..

next we walk all ard far east looking fer sneakers, belts, wedge shoes n sneaker.but den none reli interest me.. at last bought sum acessories.. ahackz.. next we went fer our dinner at cahaya.. thefood not bad..next i brong azie to play pool.. she told me dat she miss playing pool.. n since we have no plans, we headed to lucky plaza.. saw diz irritating guy dere.. haiz..so sway afta meeting him..next we headed to coffee bean at forum..

aniwae i reli 4get dat it was christmas eve, i knew it only went im out of lucky plaza building.. i saw alot of ppl wearing the christmas hat n oso with the spray can.. i was like, oh gawd its christmas tmrw.. hahakz.. im soo blur n slow.. ppl i dun knoe keep spraying at me.. n it spray my sensitive place of all n dat is my hair.. its a kind of foam spray n its so soapy but i loike the smellof it..but wen it was sprayed at my hair,i was so piss off but den, cant blame dem coz its xmas eve..haiz..

few days more n its gonna be 2007 oreadi.. im happy coz wen ita a brand new year, its gonna be a new life for me.. closethe 2006 chapter n open a new one.. alot of things happen in 2006..it sucks big time n i knoe dats shits dun happen on me onli, but with the others too.. hmm.. i knoe n i will try my best to be a much more better person.. im gonna live for the future n im gonna leave my past together with the year 2006.. so guys merry xmas n a very happy new yr in advance fer u guys.. tkcr!! muuackhzz..

2006-11-29T02:38:00.000+08:00

every night before goin to bed, i will ponder alone.. thinking wat i want in life? wat will i be in 3 to 5 yrs time.. alot of things came in mind..
actuali i dun reali knoe wat i want n wats more i dun even knoe why the hell im here in the 1st place.. i know i shud be thankful dat im here but den i rather
not to be born in diz world.. as day pass by , i juz feel my life is getting suckier n suckier..i may look happy but im not.. i dun knoe where to find my happiness..

i use to have it but den its all gone..afta dat incident, i completely change to a new person.. haiz.. i feel soo empty nowadayz.. i will spent my time alone most of
the time.. i will window shop alone.. travel alone.. i will chill at the starbucks or coffe bean alone.. hahakz..sumtimes, i will juz go wherever my feet brings me to.. im not
gaining anyone sympathy here..

hmm sch ending soon.. maybe im gonna use my free time to work my ass out.. at least im earning sum money instead of spending it..
ahackz..

klah b4 i bored anione out dere, i will end my rant here aight.. tkcr..

2006-11-19T23:35:00.000+08:00

been a long time i didnt update diz blog.. been lazy nowadays..with sch n stuff.. beside dat, i didnt knoe wat to update about.. juz get back from my aunt open hse.. ate alot todae.. aniwae last firday i get a new phone.. my panasonic phone spoit n i lent my fren her hp dat is nokia 3200..its a old model..but that temporary phone spoilt too.. so dad bought fer me a new hp.. dat is nokia 5300.. the xpress music.. though till now i didnt noe how to operate the phone dat well, i loike it.. my choice of fone is n73 or n 72..but den its quite expensive so i juz stick to the nokia 5300.. its the latest phone.. my bro got his psp n my sis got her mp3 that she been eyeing fer the past mths.. so its far fer the three of us..

aniwae im having my test tmrw.. two more weeks n my 2 yrs in ite is over..so fast right.. hopefullu i can do the test tmrw..k den i dun knoe wat to update so all diz fer now.. have to sleep early too.. gd nytez..

[ diz is my new ph0ne.... =) ]

2006-11-08T02:34:00.000+08:00

aFirst n formost, i would to wish my lovely darly art a HAPPY 18TH BURFDAE!!! at last, she can smoke freely..hehe.. didnt went to sch coz i overslept n since its my darl art burfdae, i would to celebrate her bdae.. didnt buy her any gift.. juz a bdae card, a treat at fish n co. n one pathetic slice of cake.. hope she enjoy it.. =) . so ,meet her at dhoby ghaut mrt at ard 2... as usual i was late..hehe.. upon arriving, we went to the glass hse fish n co. its the 1st time us goin to fish n co n we r lyk s0o jakon.. ahackz.. we didnt noe wat to order.. since we at fish n co, we order fish 'n' chips..deres two type.. the name of the food is long... all i remember dat the original one called t0wn city lyk dat n the other one is new york fish n chip where dere is cheese in it..we choose the smoke salmon salad as the starter n we oso order the mushroom soup..oh gosh its sooo yuummmmmy..!!! we love it loads..

after eating to our full, we decide to go fer retail theraphy n went to plaza singapura.. bought myself a top at d0rothy perkins. walk n walk n we decide to go to bugis.. i shop n shop till i went broke.. hahakz... art went fer a manicure n i soo loving it.. its so nice ok.. i shall do it one day.. hehe.. since art had to rush back home fer her celebration at home, we bid gdbye went separate ways..

the train was soo damn packed.. the ppl inside the train look lyk sardine in can sia.. hahakz.. no choice but juz hop in.. reach tamp, went to pay bills n ezlink n walk ard tm.. b0ught fer my sis sum cookies n drop by azlina werkplace awhile.. saw zai n huda at tm.. dey goin slack n ask me along.. since its near my hse, i tag along..

fir reach 1st..hes alone.. den came wan.. follow by azie n shameir.. lastly is azlina.. talk n talk... laugh n laugh.. n wen it 12:15 lyk dat we bid gdbye n here i am blogging away.. hehe.. was damn tired after a long day outside.. enuf of my rant..had to go sleep coz i be schooling n werking tmrw.. will be anotha tiring day tmrw.. lastly i will end my post with sum pixies.. till den.. gd nyte darlingss.... =)

[ my darl art turn 18 yesterday.. ]

[ the smoke salmon salad ]

[ the mushroom s0up.. *slurps* ]

[ the sauces: garlic, chili & tartar sauce ]

[ art's new york fish 'n' chips, saw the flag? ]

[ mine original fish 'n' chips ]

[ art eating the salad.. ]

[ me & the bdae gurl ]

[ the pathetic cake.. ]

[ shes happy with the cake.. =) ]

[ us, otw to bugis.. ]

[ zai & huda 1 ]

[ the g0rge0us zai & the v0que huda ]

[ fir & wan ]

[ si dua bujang senang ]

[ muka maintain yer cik bangs ]

[ dem again.. ]

2006-11-05T02:07:00.000+08:00

h0la im back.. its been soo long since i update..and im back with pixies.. some of the pics r so basi n dats the eve of hari raye.. soo long.. n the latest one was two days back ..wen rayaing with azillah,shameir,fatimah, azlina,wan n hakim.. it was fun.. we end our raya outing with watching late night movie "the grudge 2".. the show was ok..juz dat, deres a lot of shocking part n the sound effects of the show is so disturbing.. aniwae theres pixies of hari raya of my family n the dash members including aim.. not a bad outing t0o..

aniwae im so tired nowadays.. especially with schools n werk.. one more month to go b4 my school end.. so sad coz im gonna miss my mates lyk hell.. dey r juz a bunch of great peeps.. but too bad, its gonna end soon.. *sobs*.. werk was fun but the fun stop yesterday wen i didnt turn up fer werk n they r sacking me.. i dun feel gd yesterday, even wen im out rayaing dat upon reaching home i bum my ass of n went to lala land.. thought i wanna call my workplace ard 6+ am but i overshot my sleep till 11 am n was shock with the missed call n msgs from my manager. he was pissed off dat i didnt turn up fer werk n he told me to reach my workplace by half an hr or i will ferget working dere.. i was lyk waddehell.. told him dat i was unwell n he keep on saying dat hes soo mad.. to hell with it.. gonna find anotha job n i can happily wave gdbye to the old one.. thinking of dat, i find it useless werking dere right now.. the managers n the crews dat r soo fun to work with has either resign , goin to resign or been transferred out.. work has becoming bored to.. no point staying on.. ok i stop ranting bout werk..

todae, i sat at home the whole day doing nuting beside cooking,eating ,sleeping n it rotate back.. how bad n bored my life gonna be.. tmrw goin raya again with my family but den it includes my cousin n its family..so not bad..my pri sch fren invites me fer her open hse tmrw but too bad i cant go..plan goin to the ex place has to be cancelled due to the outing with the family haiz.. dash have and outing too n zai have a open hse, dat oso cant go.. aiyo.. everything fall n plan on the same day.. of coz i will choose with my family unless its not necessary den i go with the plans of my frens.. orite i will stop ranting coz i oreadi rant t0oo much till i dun knoe wat to talk about.. will end this post with pixies..enjoy.. =]

[ talk no evil, see no evil n hear no evil ]

[ zai the diva with azie yg berangan nak jadi bunga cempaka ]

[ g0rge0us zai ]

[ the happy kid ]

[ ser0nok ye kak main bunga api ]

[ swit c0uple, fai & laney ]

[eve of hari raya, me & azie ]

[ the retard siblings ]

[ family potrait 1 ]

[ family potrait 2 ]

[ mum & dad 1 ]

[ mum & dad 2 ]

[ me & my sis ]

[ my cutie dad with sis ]

[ my sis, me & sponge bob 1]

[ sponge bob, sis & me ]

[ me & azie at her hse ]

[ with dash potrait 1]

[ with dash potrait 2 ]

[ isnt shes cute..?? ]

[ azie, meerah, me & imah at meerah hse ]

[ wan & azlina ]

[ azlina & me ]

[ the sewel family & co. ]

[ imah & hakim ]

SLAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

2006-10-23T06:20:00.000+08:00

warl0oo...im back with a new skin..hehe.. with the help of my sis.. simple n nice.. i loike.. its been sumtime since i update this blog.. gonna get dusty soon.. hahakz..(asal boleh je liyana)o.

aniwae.. less den two days, its gonna be HARI RAYAA!!! maybe hitting geylang tonyte.. juz to the the feeling of hari raya onli.. actuali i dun feel excited at all..sun ask y.. the whole house has juz been spring clean yesterday..from aftanoon till night..damn tired.. my room has yet to be clean yet.. looks lyk a tornado juz past.. its damn bad man.. gonna clean it by tomorrow.. diz yr, we r not baking so much cookies.. me n my mum bz werking.. so wen free, do bit by bit.. actuali it dun reli matter coz not many ppl will cum visit my hse beside my relatives.. gonna help my mum whip up sum delicious dishes which onli be cook once a yr.. cant wait fer it .. thingking of it makes me drooling..hahakz..sorie.. gonna accompany my sis to search fer her hari raya shoe.. last min plan.. drooping by azlina workplace awhile. long tyme neber see her..hmm.. klah i think all dis fer now.. will update again wen im free.. aight.. tkcr..

akhir skali,

kepada semua, saya ingin menyusun sepuluh jari memohon maaf atas segala silap dan salah yg telah saya lakukan.adapun sengaja ataupun tidak..halalkan segala mkn dan minum saya selama ini.. SLAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI.MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

2006-10-06T05:02:00.000+08:00

actuali..i dun reli knoe wat to update..lyk i say b4..my life is so bored n dull.. so, was bloghopping n came upon diz tag.. i've done it n its u guys turn orite..its a free world n anione is free to do so aight.. dats all fer now..maybe will be back in a new skin..still searching fer the right one.. till den..t0oodles.. =)

1)single,taken or crushing? single
2)are you hapi wif ur life now? ermm..sort of
3)when you meet the right person,do you fall in love with him fast?fast? not so.. it takes sumtime to kne that person better..
4)you had your heartbroken?yeah of coz..who doesnt..??
5)do you believe that some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?ABSOLUTELY NOOOOOOO!!!!
6)would you take someone back if he/she cheats on you?if its oreadi fated..y not?? let bygones be bygones n start anew!!!
7)have you talked about marriage with another person before?yeah..
8)do you want children?of coz..loads of dem.. hehe
9)how many?3 shud be fine.. i dun mind if deres more.. =)
10)would u consider adoption?probably no..
11)if sum1 like you rite now,what do you think is best way to let you know his/her feelings?hmm..not to sure bout that..but dun be too straightforward.. no thrill seh..
12)do you enjoy getting into relationships?yeah..to the core.. =)
13)be honest.what is the furthest you and ur ex did?hmm..fer me t0 knoe fer u t0 find out..
14)do you believe in love at 1st sight?s0rt of..
15)are you romantic?in times.. =/
16)do you believe you can change sum1?a part of dem yes but not all.. n0 one is perfect!
17)if you could get married sumwhere ,where will it be?in a ballroom, can?
18)do you easily give in when you are fighting?yeah..not to make the matter much worse..
19)do you have feelings for someone right now?currently no..
20)have you ever wished you could have had someone but you messed it up?yeah.. long tyme ag0.. hehe
21)have you ever broken a heart?nope.. its the other way round..
22)if one day your bestfren fell in love with the boy/girl who you deeply in love with,what would you do?not my fate den.. juz gave dem my blessings..
23)are you missing sum1 now?yeah.. so so much..onli god knoes!!! =)

2006-10-01T05:52:00.000+08:00

gonna make diz entry snappy.. gotta update sumting.. been bz nowadays..with werk of coz.. but i dun reli feel tired even if i work the whole day.. i rather work my ass out den bumming my ass at home.. hahakz.. farni isnt it.. niwae life has been great n of coz with the company with my lovely peeps..dey r a bunch of crazy peeps.. we can talk laugh n cry the whole day.. we sumtimes meet up almost everyday without getting sick looking at the same faces.. no offence yar.. its simply great.. the tyme u confide with dem bout ur probs n they r all ears.. the feeling is juz great.. i reali thak god fer gifting me dem..

aniwae, fasting is here once again.. n diz tyme i reli2 wanna fast.. god knoes how many days i fast fer the past yrs.. oops the cat is out of the bag.. hahakz.. that was the past.. not the future.. onli wen dat monthly thingy come den god excuse me not to fast.. bside dat, i have to fast..its a MUST.. last friday, went of with my lovely peeps.. break our fast at bugis.. its actuali a good day to meet up coz everyone is free n the next day is one of my gurls burfdae..dats is norazlina aziz..!!! HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SEMUT!!! share money n bought her a cake..sat at ard bugis junction n had the cake cut..yummy2.. thinking of the cake make me drools man.. ahackz.. super nice ok.. n we ask the cake shop to put the greeting fer the bdae gurl happy 18th bdae SEMUT.. Dat is equal to happy 18th birthday ANT!! wakaka.. larf our arse out wen we say that greeting.. hope she like it though ist juz a mini celebration..

went to geylang afta dat to survey sum baju kebaya .. was a lil pack n plus its soo stuffy.. i was perspiring all the way there.. meet sum old frenz to cuzies n school mates.. afta dat went back to tamp n slack till the wee hrs b4 heading back.. plan to go out again diz upcoming week.. =) diz 7th have iftar at amp..will be goin if im not werking..

diz yr raye its not gonna be the same like i had fer the past 2 yrs.. though its the past, i reali miss the time w had together.. reli miss it alot..asking fer each other forgiveness n alot more.. its a brand new hari raye fer me this tyme.. but im sure ts gonna be alot better..right gurls..

alright lah..think i rant way t0oo much.. wanna hit the sack.. will be werking in 8hrs tyme.. have a good day peeps.. last but not leAst

SLAMAT MENJALANKAN IBADAH PUASA!!!

2006-09-20T12:51:00.000+08:00

guess wat??? im down with a reli2 bad flu.. reli2 bad dat i end up using two boxes of tissue fer the past few hrs.. i reli hate it wen im down with flu..its suckz to the max.. thought wanna go sch todae but i can barely get off from the bed..i feel reli weak.. mum ask to rest at home n she keep calling me asking me to eat medicine.. my teacher called ask y i nvr come.. told him dat im not feeling well n he ask me to see the doctor..he almost dun recoginise my voice coz its soo serak lyk hell.. hahakz.. great to be sick coz deres ppl to care fer u but the den onli god knoe how i feel lyk right now.. im super hungry but den i knoe i cant eat..i feel lyk hiting the sack again.. hahakz.. t0oodlesss... =/

2006-09-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

i keep thinking of him eversince he called me dat night..y is he back??

out of sudden?? y must he talk to me the way he use to talk during the past?

i rather u shout or use ur vulgar on me.. y??

but seriously i do miss him so so much..n wen i missing him, i tend to remember the past..

it hurts lyk hell.. i will still be waiting fer his call which i have no idea wen..

sumtimes i do want to ask him out..as a fren not more den dat..catch things up, sumting lyk dat.. but den wen i think back dat hes attached,i will juz put off the dat idea..

things reli change wen hes gone..especially my studies..it flop lyk hell..

i no nuts bout anything..2 letters has been sent to my dad fer my absent from sch.. n deres gonna be one more to come..CONFIRM!!!

dats how drastic my life has change.. my will power has to be strong to overcome all dis..

juz 6 more weeks to come to sch n everything will be over..

fasting month is starting in a week tyme..so fast..insyaallah i will fast full this time ard..

im so bored at home,not goin anywhere todae n deres no work.. so sian..

tomorrow gonna be a hectic day.. gonna go to my neighbour house coz dere diz kenduri sunat, den to the cemetery to visit my late grands, auntie n uncles,

follow by jemputan of my dads fren n the car city dinner.. walau..by the end of the day, i will be totally worn out..

hahakz.. n i have to be reli2 sure to wake up early fer my lesson on monday dat starts at 9 am in the morning..cant be late..

n on monday evening got the nur teens practice coz tuesday

has performance at geylang ite (vtc)..

hmm i tynk i rant so much todae..so will update wn im free aite..

t0oodles...

2006-09-12T00:19:00.000+08:00

h0h0.. its been quite sumtime since i update ..n im back with a tag.. anione out dere can juz do the thang ok.. lifes becoming bored.. the company of frens is great.. relati0nship of parents is all g0od fer n0w.. hahakz.. sch?? i can juz count the days i attend with juz using my fingers.. dats how bad my attendance is.. well i reli3 dun knoe wat to update.. dun 4get to do the tag ..t0oodles...

1. Full name: Nurul Liyana Yunos
2. Name backwards: Sonuy anayil Lurun
3. Were you named after someone?: dun think so..
4. Meaning of name: hmm.. not too sure bout dat..
5. Nickname: Lee
6. Screen name: Liyana
7. D.O.B: 03-05-88
8. Place of birth: Kandang Kerbau Hospital
9. Nationality: Singaporean
10.Current location: my br0 r0om..

11.Star sign: Taurus
12.Religion: Islam
13.Height: 1.66m
14.Weight: t0ns of kilo..
15.Shoe size: 9
16.Hair color: Dark Brown
17.Eye color: Dark Brown.
18.Who do you look like: I lo0k lyk me.. hehe..
19.Innie or outtie: Outtie..
20.Lefty or righty: Right..
21.Gay, straight, bi or others: Im purely straight..

22.Best friends: art, azie, azlina, imah, lyn and fiza..(luv dem to the bits..)
23.Best friends you trust most: art, azie, azlina, imah, lyn and fiza
24.Favourite pals: : art, azie, azlina, imah, lyn and fiza
25.Best friend of opposite sex: n0ne
26.Best buddies: art, azie, azlina..
27.Boyfriend or girlfriend: gUrlfren
28.Crush: fer me to know fer u to find out..
29.Parents: Both of dem..
30.Worst Enemy: None..
31.Favourite online guy: kAy
32.Favourite online girl: erm.. n0ne..
33.Craziest friend: art, azie, azlina, imah, lyn and fiza
34.Advice friend: art, azie, azlina & lyn
35.Loudest friend: azlina
36.Person you cry with: I cried alone..
37.Person you laugh with: art, azie, azlina, imah, lyn and fiza

38.Any sisters: 1 only
39.Any brothers: 1 only
40.Any pets: its my sista pet included..??

41.Any disease: n0pe
42.Pager: 6 yrs ago..
43.Personal phone line: n0t necessary
44.Cell phone: yup
45.Lava Lamp: is dere such lamp??
46.Pool or hot tub: pool is the best..
47.A car: not my own but family car...
48.Your personality: bubbly n chubby is simply me..
49.Driving: in tymes to come.
50.For certain reasons, I dont even noe why this is empty!
51.Room: its always not organize..
52.Whats missing: love and attention..
53.School: ite amk..
54.Bed: big queen size bed juz fer me..
55.Relationship with parents: ok fer n0w..
56.Believe in yourself: sumtimes..
57.Believe in love at first sight:yeah
58.Good listener: Yup...
59.Get along well with parents: erm not so..
60.Save e-mail convos: nope..
61.Pray: honestly no..
62.Believe in reincarnation: nope..
63.Make fun of people: its my forte..
64.Like to talk on the phone: yeah,especially in the middle of the night wen im stiff bored..
65.Want to get married: of c0z I do.. whu doesn’t?? =)
66.Like to drive: yup, but juz scared dat I might get lost..
67.Motion Sickness: n0pe,
68.Eat stem of broccoli: n0t at all..
69.Eat chicken with fork: sUmtimes wen im lazy to use hand..
70.Dream in colour: huh??
71.Type with your fingers on home role: n0pe..
72.Sleep with stuff animals: yeah..my big teddy bear..
73.Next to you: my handphone..

74.On the walls of your room: mirrors..
75.On your mousepad: It`s a acer mouse pad..
76.Dream car: mazda 3..
77.Dream date: by the beach looking up the sky n counting the stars together..
78.Dream honeymoon spot: a resort by the beach..
79.Dream husband or wife: open, romantic n a joker type..
80.Bedtime: afta 11 pm b4 5 am..
81.Under your bed: old stuff chuck under it..
82.Single most important question: wat will I be in tymes to come..??? = /
83.Bad time of the day: m0rning..waking up fer sch..
84.Your worst fear: Death..

85.The weather is: windy..
86.Time: 00:05
87.Date: 12-09-2006

88.Best trick did on someone: prank calls..
89.Theme song: songs dat can make my body move.. =)
90.Hardest thing about growing up: frenz company..
91.Funniest experience: Getting funny with my mom.
92.Scariest experience: When my dad gone berserk.
93.Silliest thing you have ever said: g0d plz take me away n0w!!! hahakz..
94.Most desperate and funniest thing i have done to get the opposite sex: askin him to pull down his boxer to bite his ass.. ahackz..
95.Scariest thing while you are with your friends: wen im broke… =(
96.Worst feeling: wen I do sumting wrong n scared to amit my mistake.. = |
97.Best feeling in the world: t0 be happy with my love ones.. =)
AND NOW, THE SABOTAGING BEGINS!!!CHOOSE EIGHT TO DO THE QUIZ:
1) art
2) lyn
3) rina
4) ani0ne
5) ani0ne
6) ani0ne

2006-08-21T00:26:00.000+08:00

hmm, wat shud i update about.. actuali i wanna update but dun knoe about wat.. maybe juz updating bout my activities the past few days back..basically my daily life is soo bored.. 1stly school..the project sucks.. n i feel lyk i becoming lazy to go to sch.. get a letter from one of the teacher bout my irregular attendance..ahackz.. do i look lyk i care.. its true i didnt attend his lesson at all coz i find it waste of time attending his class which i n everyone knoes how r we to absorb wateva his teaching.. he didnt knoe how to teach.. i realli2 wonder how he get to be a teacher in the 1st place.. ahackz.. well my weekend was filled with activities lyk my fren chalet dats in friday.. chilled till the wee hrs..slack ard with my lovely frens where their jokes nvr stop ending.. talk about our life wen we still a kiddos.. talking about boy n girl band group.. actualli its crap, but we enjoy ourselves.. laugh lyk nobody bisness..n i was happy coz my parents allow me to stay up late.. but i nvr pijak their kepala hor.. its better if i get their permission rather den fell uneasy every minute thinking wat the outcome will be if i get back late without their consent.. actuali plan to play pool the next day but den sum of dem sleep till nyte..so give it amiss.. was werking on sat nyte.. a bit of conflict at werk with diz bloody muthaf**king manager.. reali hate him.. grr...thinkong of him reli make my blood boil.. afta werk went to meet shameir 4 breakfast..wait fer him at the macdonald till its gonna luch time oreadi.. but i still get to eat my hotcakes..yum2.. i loike.. meet lina awhile n went back home afta dat.. have a cold bath n i straight away bum on my bed n went to lala land.. was soo damn tired.. wake up, ate my dinner n watch this controvesial movie title "GUBRA" at the demand tv at scv channel.. its a gd show actuali..bout loved n forgiveness..but the show a bit funny.. i dun knoe how to explain but its juz funny i cant describe it.. hmm its lyk being urself movie where they act not following the script.. understand? i myself dun understand.. u guyz watch it n u will understand wat i mean.. hahakz.. well i guess all diz fer now.. i wanna hit my bed again..tmrw schooling n its A MUST TO ATTEND..im trying very hard to be a good girl ok.. till den ..t0oodless....

deres sumting t0 be learn from this movie.. =)

2006-08-15T15:09:00.000+08:00

Thank you for always being there,

To listen and understand me.

I appreciate all you did for me,

And all you still do.

Thank you for making me feel whole again,

For putting my pieces back together.

I appreciate you putting my life back together,

You saved my life.

You may not understand,

Why I do what I do.

But you never criticized,

You just helped my through.

I knew I could come to you when I was down,

'cause I knew you'd always be there

to pick me back up

and say everything will be ok.

2006-08-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

i see no future in myself..i have no idea where im heading to..n wats more worse is dat, i dun have any goals in life..once upon a time, i do plan a future fer myself n i do have goals in life..but den everything been shattered into pieces.. and its lyk back to square one..in times i feel so useless n lost.. right now, everything has gone haywire..wen i say everything,its EVERYTHING in my life.. it so sucks.. i can go bonkers anytime..its lyk domino.. wen one thing goes wrong, everything will follow suit.. i been having sleepless nyte.. if i sleep, i been awaken of my bad dream.. grrr.. i dun knoewho turn to.. i got no one comfortable to talk bout my probs with.. i hate to be alone.. im dying of love and attention.. friend?? i feel lyk the bond its not as close as we use to be..though we r all back together, the feeling its not the same.. each as their own commitments.. but i knoe in each other heart, we still love each other.. all diz fer now.. will update more in the next post.. t0odles..

2006-08-11T11:26:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of always being let down

Fed up with you turning my smiles into a frown

Why is it that you cant keep a promise you make

Someone should grab you and give you a good shake

And make you snap out of this world you're in

You're really starting to crawl under my skin

My friends see how you act and how you treat me

They don't think were right for each other and I must agree

I seriously thought you were different from the rest

You seemed so mature and I was truly impressed

But of course you managed to prove me wrong

Here with me is not where you belong

Please just leave and take with you all your lies

The ones that caused tears in these eyes

2006-08-04T01:15:00.000+08:00

i dun know where im heading to in life.. i feel so lost.. i dun knoe wat i shud do.. the memories ss back.. it come so suddenly.. juz went i think everything is doin well, diz happen.. all i can do is juz cry.. cry lyk a baby.. the blow is juz too hard.. i dunnoe who i shud pour my sorrows to.. my frenz?? i dun want to be a burden to dem.. i may see happy outside..but inside in me, its juz the opposite.. the pain is so unbearable.. i have try many things to put it behind.. in times it works but not owayz.. im damn weak.. the blow is too hard fer me to handle.. all i can do now is juz cry and pray to god to let all diz go quickly n gave me the strength to carry on in life.. im out..

2006-08-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

been bz with sch n werk n dats the reason fer not blooging too much.. was soo damn shagged n tired at the end of the day dat sumtimes i straight away jump on the bed n go to lala land.. hahakz.. fer todae afta sch, me n art was bored dat we slack at starbucks b4 catching up a movie dat is mortuary...yeah its been sumtime since i watch movies at cinema n the next movies dat i would defenitely watch is lake house the fast n furious tokyo drift...i juz cant wait till my pay day..even if deres no one to tag me along,i dun mind watching it alone..hehe.. afta that movie end, i went to walk alone at city hall..remembering that azie have her dance prac, i went to see her practice.. it was sharin bdae todae..so laney n fidah bought a slice of cake fer him..so sweet of dem.. n they bought us some brownie n sausage roll too.. they r bunch of fun people to mix with.. they dun look like their age.. hahakz.. they r great fren actually.. make a move ard 10 lyk dat..mind u im schooling tmrw.. so the pics of movie dat i watch juz now n oso the pic im goin to watch.. so all diz fer todae..will update wen im not tired or wen im free ok..for now, im goin to lala land..toodles..

2006-07-26T00:08:00.000+08:00

hooola...boredom strucks me todae.. stick my arse the whole day.. no amp coz not many will be coming so dey cancelled it.. as u knoe, sch reopen yesterday n we were given our new timetable n guez wat.. me n the whole class reli feel lyk screwing up the one who set the timetable.. from monday till friday,the class will end at 5 or 5:30 n it starts at blardy 8 am..who the hell want to come that early..even the nerds will not come at that time.. deres another prob dat is the teacher will be the one dat everyone hate..its not as in his character but in his way of teaching.. i bet u guyz wont understand it even if he repeat it lyk hundreds tyme..errrghhh...suckz big tyme man.. how m i suppose to pass wen hes my teacher..oh gosh.. deres so called lyk english lesson wen im taking up electronics course..i simply dun understand dem..i feel lyk im in a secondary sch...hurr..lucky i start at 12 tmrw..b4 class start,meet art fer lunch 1st..aniwae as i promise from the previous entry bout the pics taken wen i go with my ladies plus a guy will be posted at the end of diz entry ok..im so sorie dat its oreadi so basi..so sorie.. well all diz fer now.. my bro wanna use the comp.. t0oodles.. =)

* i l0ike!! *

2006-07-24T02:46:00.000+08:00

ahackz..i wanted so much to update but den im too tired to even on the comp.. been bz with work fer the past weeks.. im starting sch tmrw..my hols r over juz lyk dat.. soo fast.. well basically im doin all fine now.. fill myself with lotsa of activities but no time fer my family.. i was the one who got out the hse 1st n came back the last.. hahakz.. been filling myself with lotsa activities to help time goes by much more faster.. it works.. i no longer think bout him as much as the past.. life has to go on.. i have my friends n family.. we r fated to be together once but not forever.. but my heart still ache wen i tynk bout the past.. juz learnt from the previous mistake n dun repeat it.. look herre, i change my skin again.. so simple.. i loike.. im soo bored..i cant get to sleep though im left with lyk less den 5 hr b4 i have to head to sch.. it owayz happen.. i can only sleep only the tyme wen its tyme fer me to get out the bed.. hmm sleeping disorder..aniwae i promise to put up the picnic pixies from my outing with my gurls ryte, i will update on the next entry ok..its a promise.. so sorie..i juz take sum pics from syaz so dat will be enuff.. hmm i dun knoe wat else to update..will update more next tyme aite..fer now all diz fer todae.. im goin to bed i guess..ahackz.. t0odles.. =)

2006-07-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

well..its been sum time i abandon my blog..been bz with work n stuff.. if i were to log in, i wont even have the time to read or put up any entry..ryte now..im slowly picking things up.. wat past is past..lets juz put behind us n learn from our mistake.. filll myself with lotsa programmes or outing so to keep myself bz ..if not i will juz sit n the past will come back..i dun want it to be that way.. well ryte now im s0ooooooo excited bout tmrw.. wanna knoe y?the reason is dat me n my lovely girls is goin fer a picnic tmrw..the last tyme we went picnic together is lyk two yrs back.. soo long ehk.. but sad to say dat meerah n azlina will not be joining.. but im gonna make sure that the next tyme outing, everyone muz be dere..its a must..will lost sum pics ok coz it seems my blog look so plain.. klah im goin to lala land..damn tired.. t0odles..

2006-07-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

as day pass by, i becoming to hate myself..i reli2 dun want to be in diz world animore.. i have see no future n no point staying herre.. alot of prob arise diz week n i mean alot..i have try reli hard to 4get everything but its juz too difficult.. too difficult..no one knoes wat n how i feels everytime.. everything i do is all not right..i reli feel lyk ending myself so i dun have to think bout all diz.. although i pour everything out to my frenz but i dun feel better..i dun want dem to suffer bcos of me..ryte now im not counting the days to my future but the day to my end of world.. dun ask y..i reli hate living herre..all i can do is cry.. no matter where i am n if i feel i want to cry,i cry..i reli dun expect that my life has to be this way..y?y muz god gave me such a test.. the place or shud i say the person who i put my high hopes on,the one that i want to see the future with,the on who teach me the meaning of life,wat the meaning of love is gone.. so now im having probs,who shud i turn to??? im not comfprtable with others but to him i do.. i knoe life has to go on but den its juz too difficult..i dun have the strength to move on..im damn weak..reli weak..i dun knoe wat else to say..im so exhausted..im outz..

2006-06-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

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2006-06-20T00:58:00.000+08:00

well..i wanna start anew..dats the reason fer changing to a new skin..though its not so nice but i loike..simple n not c0mplicated n leceh.. fer now im slowly picking things up.. relationship is a no no fer now.. i have lotsa things to see to den relationship..schools?im oreadi in holidae mood though its not holidae yet.. test was over since last week.. no one cuming to school so wats the point fer me goin to school.. go school oso nvr study..sleep at home is much more better.. well actuali i have nuting to update about..so wen i have sumting to put up,i update den ok..klah im damn tired wanna go to lala land..t00odles..

2006-06-04T11:57:00.000+08:00

well..i have thought it over..he no longer deserve my tears n my love.. he didnt appreciate n he dun desreve it at all.. i have to be strong.. no use crying over a spilled milk..y shud i love him wen he doesnt appreciate my love n everything i have done fer him..i will juz remember the moments we spent together..thats all.. nuting else..easy say den done huh.. i have oreadi plan sumting in mind.. i hope it will go smoothly.. life still have to go on.. i still have my family n my lovely frens.. lets juz ferget our promise made together.. its sad that its ending diz way.. its fated.. i cant sleep peacefully fer the pass few days.. i keep tossing n turning on my bed.. maybe i have sleeping disorder.. hahakz..

well fer the pass few days,im a happy gurl.. my dad bought me a haiavanas slipper n a watch..i wanted the black n pink adidas watch but can juz nice fit..no allowance at all..n the salesmen said dat,dat watch it actuali fer the kids..hahakz.. my sis get one too..dad ask me to buy the same as her..dunwantlah coz its t0o common oreadi.. at last i grab the puma watch..hahakz..i love it alot..thankz alot papa..

yesterday,hit town with azie,imah n syaz.. have a fun tyme with dem.. 1stly wen we reach town,we were damn hungry..went to far east plaza n eat at cahaya..the food is not bad..nice..i loike.. afta eating walk awhile n i bought myself tw0 pair or earings..search fer the beads bangle fer my sis but dun have.. decided to watch movie n we proceed to lido..all the movie start at 7+ n imah have to go by 8..so we miss out the movie n we decided to go n play pool at lucky plaza..off we go..have a great time..afta pool,imah have to go back..left me ,azie n syaz.. walk down orchard,somerset till istana park..sat dat,took pics ,look at the sky, talk2 n dats the end of the day..azie n syaz is goin bowling with syaz family at yck..i didnt follow..damn tired oreadi n no mood t0o.. so at the train we seperated ways..

fer todae,maybe im not goin anywhere..broke oreadi..tynk will be sticking my butt at home 2dae..i miss my frens alot..i miss azlina n i miss meerah.. i reali miss dem alot.. wen can i ever met dem again.. i miss the tyme we had together.. let god decide on my fate.. im tired of living.. im so exhausted.. how i wish i cud be a butterfly where i can flutter away anywhere n anytime i want.. gosh,its been a long entry..will post sum pics of my outing yesterday wen i get it from syaz camera aight.. have a gd day..t0odles..

2006-06-01T00:21:00.000+08:00

its getting worser n worser..our relationship is goin nowhere..its just soo hard to let him go.. i try but i simply cant..i dun have the will power to face all diz..im juz t0o weak..n i cant face the fact if hes no longer mine.. i juz cant..i cant be strong.. i cant do anything..all i can do is cry..cry to make me feel better but it dun..i reali dun know wat to do..many suggested me to leave him.. i cant.. i dun want it to go to waste.. i will try every way n means to get us back together lyk we use to.. i miss him alot.. his hug,his kisses,his smile,his laughter, simply everything bout him.. life has to go on.. i knoe dat but its difficult without him.. i noe im st0opid..i knew.. i really dun knoe wat to do.. im tired.. i left no more tears.. im so exhausted..nytez..

2006-05-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

im in n0 mood actuali to put up an entry.. juz got back from the 3 days 2 nyte chalet..it was soo fun n i reali enjoy myself.. n im still soo tired.. i miss him soo much.. tynk i have to let him go before he hurt me much deeper.. how i wish we cud turn back tyme..nytez..

2006-05-24T23:58:00.000+08:00

y must u hurt me tyme n again? issnt one tyme enuff fer you? y must u treat me diz way? y? u use to pamper n shower me with so much love...but wats happening now? stop pin pointing at me as if its my fault.. u change tremendously.. i want the old u back.. everynyte without fail, i will hear ur voice b4 goin to bed n dat including wen u r tired.. u dun mind at all..but now? wen i call u, u say u have no mood to talk n u tired n want to sleep..i have to call u b4 u call me? y cant u take ur own initiative..? its been weeks n weeks since i met u? everytime u gave excuses dat u r tired or bla bla bla.. but if meeting ur frens ,deres no excuse to turn dem down.. what do u treat me 4? as ur clothes which u can juz chuck it aside wen u dun want it anymore.. y?y must all diz happen onli now..? y cant it happen wen we were juz 1 or 2 mths together? y must it be now.. many questions keep popping up.. i have nvr expected things to turn out diz way.. stop saying i love u wen u dun mean it..stop saying dat u can die fer me coz its all juz a lump of shit dat cumming out from ur mouth.. stop saying dat im unresonable wen u r the one who is unreasonble.. u once promise to nvr leave me alone..u once promise nvr to leave me alone coz u knoe how much i hate loneliness n how much i hate to be alone.. u knoe it..dun say dat u love me n dat i dun knoe how to repay u fer the love u shower me.. wat do u take love fer ? to give n n expecting a return?? u once say to be there fer me ..but wen im sick? where were u? u were out enjoying urself dat u clearly forgotten bout me? stop asking me to change coz i have done all that i cud..is above my limit.. u shud accept me fer who m i n not change me to be lyk wat u want me to be.. it takes two hand to clap n it took two ppl two tango.. love have to be fair..it MUST be fair.. but have u been fair to me? u say dat u had enuff of my stubborness?u call me kepala concrete instead of kepala batu..wtf? dun tell me u r not stuborn headed at all? tell me straight to my face dat u dun need me anymore... im still holding on diz relationship helplessly..but y? i can simply chuck u away lyk wat u did to me..but me? i cant ..coz i love u soo much dat i dun want to hurt u... let me be the one to be hurt.. scold n rant at me all u want whether is my fault or not coz i knoe u will nvr admit to ur mistake.. how i miss the sweey moment we had together.. the moment u look at my eyes n hug me tightly saying that u love me n will nvr let me go.. how i wish i cud turn back tyme... y must i keep on crying to sleep?? y muz i keep on thingking bout u every seconds without fail.. y muz i hold on to the fone wherever i go including going to the toilet waiting fer ur call or msg which i knoe dat u will nvr do dat..y ? its all because i love u ..maybe u knoe i love u but u will nvr knoe how much i truly love u..wen i told u i miss u ,u nvr reply back saying i miss u to me.. u juz ignore n pretend wat u juz hear.. i sit down n think.. think n think... maybe u r not meant fer me to spent my whole life with u...but is very very hard to let u go.. i rather die den live without u.. i can lost everything but not u.. love u soo much aliff..

2006-05-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

think i will juz put up an entry..its been sumtimes since i put up one.. nuting gets better..all i can do now is juz go on with the flow..though things dun seem as easy as it may seen, i juz take it to my stride.. school were ok fer now.. got sum project to be done.. getting tougher as day pass by but i wont give up.. gonna struggle n learn very2 hard.. juz a few more months to go before i enrol.. my teacher oso say dat this tyme topic which he will be teaching is very difficult n complicated.. but let me say diz again.. i wont nvr give up..im gonna fight till the end..

so todae, azie accompany me to give back my old pass at the airport police station..in order to get the new pass,i have to return back the old pass.. expired oreadi.. so in two days ltr,i can make my new pass n i can start werk starting from next week..ahckz..i need werk badly..but diz tyme i wanna save up my money n not juz splurging ard as though my dad owns a money printing company.. its fer my future ler.. want to go oso easy..no need to keep asking my parents fer money till dey r fed up..kk..lets continue my post fer todae..erm..afta doin the pass, the both of us r soo hungry dat we decided to go n eat...azie wanted to eat at the airport canteen..but den i want to eat at popeye..at last we go to popeye coz we have nvr been dere b4.. ahackz.. the food is not back..same mcm marybrown n kfc.. so called lyk dat ah.. afta eating to our full till our perut senak n mls nk jln, we decided to go back tamp to juz chill n slack ard..

pikir punya pikir punya pikir, we decided to go to ...................

n fyi i went dere 3 times fer this week.. lucky 3 times..if 7 times,i will go bankrupt sia.. since deres onli the two of us, we decided to call the others.. but den dey r all bz.. was reli damn bored seh..plus im soo tired n sleepy.. so we walk n walk century square till we reach the cineplex.. ask her(Azie) whether she want to watch any movies or not.. n she die2 dun want.. do i look lyk i care..hahakz..join the queue n bought two tickets to watch.....

the show was great..not bored at all.. its the same as the titanic coz it involved the big cruise n oso the amaergedon(do i spell i correctly..??) coz the dad risk its life to save the others..n its soo sad.. overall i find this a great show.. not wasting ur money ok.. afta everything over we walk back home.. though its a tiring day,i do enjoy myself..aniwae i reali miss my boo sooo much.. i cant sleep coz i keep thinking bout him n i miss him lyk crazy.. =( love u soo much syg.. klah till herre den..wanna go lala land..damn sleepy oready..nytez..t0oodles...

2006-05-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

its not that im lazy to bl0g..juz dat alot of things happen which i shall not eleborate m0re.. will up date wen everything has stabalised aight..s0 s0 s0rie.. tkcr..

2006-05-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

well fer todae n sat, been sticking my arse at home..supposely goin out with my b0o..he promise me ALOT of times dat he will bring me out..i was reali looking forward..i was so happy n soo excited..it been half year or more since we go out together..everytime i ask him out,he have other plans..deres not even a time where he can spent time with me..who m i to him?.. r we juz name a lover?? wen i ask him out fer my movie,he said hes tired or hes tied up with work n he PROMISE to bring me to the movies wen hes free..till now,he dun keep up to his words..wen i want to go alone or with my friends he dun allow..wen i pester him,he said dat if dun watch cannot die..but i really want to watch..fer todae he promise to bring me out.. i told him not to promise coz i scared that he have other plan.but he promise n convince me dat he WILL bring me out todae.i was soo excited..he go out last nyte..he say he WONT go anywhere but he did.. i told him dat if he go out,he will surely go back late..he said dat he will be out awhile n guess wat tyme he come back??? 7+ nearly 8 am in the morning..i wait up fer till till i doze off ard 6+ am..he didnt even msg or call me..hes awhile is 8 am..wat if he say he will be back late? wat tyme will come back? 8 pm the next day.. he say dat if i knoe him too well den i shudnt take it too heart..wad the fuck??everytime muz hear wat he say?wat bout me? dun i have any say?we r juz a gf n bf..we r not engaged much less marry..y must he treat me lyk diz.. isnt he being so possesive??? dun i have any space to move ard..since i noe him, i lost alot of my friends.. friends which i cant count how many i have.. but now,using the finertips i can count how many frens i have.. not even 5.. i becoming to hate him..in truly disappointed n upset with him.. in relationship,we shid be fair..so wat if hes a GUY n im a GIRL??? is there alot of differences..? the difference is juz the gender.. so wat if hes older than me if he has in mind that he can take advantage of the young ones..grrr...i damn piss of.. he really spoil my day or maybe the whole week .. i will be starting work soon so i will not have so much time with him..i will be schooling n werking fer 5 days..n on sat n sun i will be working.. i would not care bout wat he thinks..he can merajok with me fer all i care.. i will not pester him to go out with me..klah i wanna eat..will update again..toodles..

2006-05-05T00:10:00.000+08:00

things has nver get better.one minute we r ok n the next minute we r not.. i really dun knoe wat will be happening with us in times to come..i have never been perfect fer u..not even once..u owayz want the best..u cant even accept my flaws..i aint an angel.. i noe i have disappoint n let u down alotsa times but den muz u give up that easily.. u owayz say u not me soo well but to me u r not.. im owayz at fault.. im owayz the cause of ever arguments n it has never been urs..issit fair? u making me hate myself even more..u only knoe dat i oways hurt u but dun u ever knoe dat u have hurt me t0o.. u have sumone to lent their ears to, u have sumone who will owayz can talk to..but me?i have NONE.. so everything i keep to myself.. wen i told u bout my probs, u take that im adding a burden or in other words im giving u more problems..i keep everything to myself.. im not the sort who tell ppl bout my probs.. it all piling up n im goin thru all this alone.. wen i joke ard with u ,u take it seriously.. blew off ur top as though nobody bisnes.. have u ever spare a thought bout wat im feeling n wat im goin thru ryte now.. all u knoe dat all my probs r the minor ones n urs is much more worser.. u owayz teach me not to keep any secret or own up wen i do sumting/aniting wrong, but went i told u everything, u fuck me up n down.. i really hate myself.. u say u change bcoz of me..n now im wanna say dat i change is all bcos of u.. y cant i sleep everyday without shedding any tears fer u?? y? im tired of everything.. oh god,can u juz take me away..living in this world fer 18 yrs n 2 days is oreadi enuff fer me..i dun want to see anything more.. the pain juz wont go away..fer now,let me juz cry to sleep...nytez..

2006-05-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

firstly i wanna wish myself a HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY..age is catchin up..time flew very fast..without knowing i will be 20 or 30 or 50 yrs oreadi.. oh god, can i juz stay young forever?pleaseee...i dunna wanna grow old as in wrinkles start popping up..grrr... so aniwae, not many ppl remember my burfdae n dat including my b0o..n wat i say b4 dat he may 4get my burfdae as he is bz with work actuali came true.. he really ferget my burfdae..he can even say, "ehk,todae ur burfdae ehk?..sorie2 i lupa ar n sorie deres no present.."i was keeping silence all the way.i was super sad but den haiz..dun knoe lah wat to say..no words can describe the feeling dat im feeling ryte now.. i juz feel dat todae is juz the same as any other days.. =( well my mum bought fer me a cake..a nutella cake..its damn nice dat i ate two slice..hahakz.. thankz mum.. he can at least spare me with all his vulgarities juz bcos today is my burfdae n the next day he can scold n scold as much as he want..but den dats not wat happen..he juz treat it lyk other normal dayz.. fact say,im truly disappointed with him..im feeling down.. i wanna cry to sleep..nyte2..

2006-05-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

im feeling very exciiiiited..hehehe..less den 30mins n i will be a yr older..words cant express juz wat im feeling ryte now at this moment..n i juz cant stop grinning from juz now.. actuali i dun knoe wat i wanna blog about ..juz wanna say dat im feeling super duper excited.will blog again.. toodles..

2006-04-30T18:53:00.000+08:00

wake up at 2pm juz n0w.. is my annoying irritating sis wh0 wake me up..if n0t, i will only wake up ard diz hr..nt goin anywhere so might as well i spent tyme slepping.. mum went to the market juz now morning n she bought nasi lemak..nt bad the food..den mum told me dat she had bought stuff fer the cupcake.. i told her yesterday dat i wanted to make cupcake.. she get everything ready on the table n all i do is juz make it n bake it.. the outcome its n0t bad..its nice okay...i juz do it fer fun since i will not be goin anywhere t0dae..everything went smoothly went the last tray went into the oven..guess wat.. my last tray of cupcakes id burned..its black..n deres no way u can eat it..waste sia..hmpphh... lucky got a few pieces left n dats fer my bro.. lucky mum brought sum fer dad ,gave my neighb0ur some n my aunt who came awhile juz now..

b0o is out fer dinner at diz hotel.. ferget wat it is called.. conferm grand one.. he got invitation from his cuzzen.. so he went dere with his sis.. n the event will end at ard 12.. s0o long n im here getting bored..i will tend to get bored easily if i dun have anything to do..haiz..wat m i suppose to do now?no one to talk to..n im hungry..aiyoh.. heeelllllpppppp...i need sum company.. everyone is out n im stuck at home.. klah will update again.. wanna cook sumting.. hungry oreadi..t0odles..

2006-04-30T03:53:00.000+08:00

sorie peeps..not dat i dun wanna update..juz dat i dun knoe wat to update about.. my everyday activity is the same dat is goin to the hospital..u ppl will bored if i keep updating bout my trip to the hospital arent u?juz dat on thursday, went to have lunch with art at sakura.. ate till i feel lyk vomitting.. its buffet so we can eat as much as u want n it cost only 20 bucks each fer lunch n fer dinner will be 24..art is one of their staff so she we got 10% of.. juz eat one tyme n dats my meal fer that day..is more den enuf.. lotsa food but its more to the japanese kind of food.. its simply delicious..*yum yum* gonna bring my b0o dere fer dinner coz he starts to kempunan wen i say how delicious the food is..but dis tyme im gonna go to art workplace dere..ahackz.. after we had our lunch, we went to play pool.. juz a few rounds n i feel damn tired.. maybe i lack of sleeping.. so afta playing pool we went back to tampines n oh the sakura is located at pasir ris downtown.. thought wanna chill at coffee bean but den we r t0o full..so walk2 at century square n bought fer dad sum food dat hes craving at that moment n it is none other den soon kueh (issit the right spelling?) nt t0o sure.. afta buy the food , i went to the hospital n art went back to her workplace.. its her off day n she still went back too work.. hmm.. the reason is the guy who admire her, hurt his hand n she s0o g0od hearted girl, bought fer him antiseptic cream..so thoughtful of her.. meet mum at the mrt before heading together to the hosp.. afta hosp,meet my b0o awhile..n i mean really awhile.. not even 1 hr..coz y? its oreadi been 3 weeks since i met him n i miss him alots..juz dat he dun knoe or he pretend he doesnt knoe.. lyk dat os0 kena scolded by him..grrr...he say im juz wasting my time..but i dun mind.. i can do anything juz fer him..*grins* dats all happen on thursday.. aniwae as u ppl see, i change my skin..actuali the previous one is black t0o ryte..hmm means i juz change the pic n stuff..the song cant work.. maybe in few dayz time it will work..hopefully.. patience ok.. n i juz cant wait fer this coming wednesday coz its my 18th birthday..3 more days t0 g0..*jump ard*im not proud dat im 18 where i can buy ciggies o enter club legally but hmm dun knoe la wat im excited about..n i say b4 that i dun expect anything fr0m anione including my b0o..who knoes maybe hes too bz b0ut werk till he f0rget my bdae..its ok.. orite den..all fer todae..is oreadi 4+ in the morning..lala land is calling.. t0odles...

2006-04-20T18:15:00.000+08:00

well..nuting much happen actuali... as usual the only place i go is visting my dad at the h0sp..still n0 changes..dey r juz wasting our money on their bills.. dad's been moved to another room.the previous ward,dey r using it fer the ladies..i prefer the previous room coz deres a private toilet attach juz fer that room isnt it better rather den sharing it with the public..dad dun lyk where hes bed is placed...its near the sink n not convenient fer him.. maybe he will try to ask fer a change to an0tha bed.. aniwae, i got this problem of sleeping every nyte..i will tend t0 get b0red easily..guess wh0 will be the one i 1st called t0 check whether they r free to entertain my boredness?? ahackz..none other den dey....

everytime wen i need sum1 to talk to dat is oways during night time..dey will be my victim.. will only go back wen i have overcome my boredness..so bad of me..but dey dun seem t0 mind.. but hey im not taking advantage of dem ok..its been a l0ng tyme since i met my b0o.. miss him s0o much juz dat he dun knoe.. =( hes owayz bz with work dat he have no tyme fer him.. work lyk a dog but everytime say no money.. is he trying to cheat a small kid.. aniwae, its hes money n0t mine.. so dun bother bout dat much lah.. hes not my husband oso who need to give nafkah or wat.. hes juz my boyfren..13 days more to my burfdae..woh0ooo.. counting down the days dat i will be turning 18..hahakz..but i dun expect anything or any surpises..n dats including my b0o.. wh0 kn0es he 4get..but i will certainly will nvr ever ferget his as his burfdae is oso our anniversary.. n diz yr will be our 2 yrs t0gether.. n i juz feel lyk i juz noe him..well time pass by very fast..we have go thru ups n downs together..though he nvr shows dat he love me but i knoe how much n how deep is his love fer me..hmm guess i will stop here.. im damn hungry n wanna go fer a bite.. will update wenever i free..t0odles..

2006-04-17T03:01:00.000+08:00

been goin up n down the hosp fer the past few dayz..his toes r getting bad.. i dun want to think bout it.. it reali hurts.. its all bcoz of his diabetoc probs dat become the cause of it.. im juz scared they gonna cut his toes away..not one but two.. i realli pity my dad.. if lyk dat, he cant work n drive his car animore.. todae i didnt visit him.. tmrw my cuzzen gonna drive me,my mum,my sis n my bro dere..hes using my dad car to sent us to the hosp.. had sum misunderstanding with my b0o.. afta one problem settle, another problem pop up.. hes juz being reasonable.. grrr... reali damn fed-up with him.. called him 100 over times but not a single call he pick nor he reply any of my msgs.. his fault n i have to seek forgiveness... waith long2 ah.. he juz dun understand me.. as i feel so stress up n fed up, i ask my sis out.. where to?? guess..ahackz.. we went to haagen dazz to have diz........

chocolate fondue.. white n black chocolates.. yum2

diz r the fruits..made up of green apple,banana & strawberries.. i loike!*slurps*

n diz r the ice cream.. deres 4 flavours.. *dr0ols*

cookies n wafer stick fer anione??

me dipping my 'so called' fork into the black chocolate..

here goes the banana dipping into the chocolates..

my sis with the ice-cream dip with chocolate n os0 peanuts..shes l0ving it.

see dat..arent u ppl dr0oling..hehehe

*s0bs* dats the end of it..

i was full afta eating dat.. u ppl shud try it..no m0re hesitati0n..hmm klah im goin t0 lala land.. update again wen im free ok.. nytez..t0oodles...

2006-04-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

wen to visit my dad juz now aftan0on with sis n mum..bro went much early juz now.. dad condition is becoming worser.. im so sad fer him.. im scared of losing him.. he never neglect his duty towards his family..nvr at all.. everything he done for is all fer his family.. he care a lot about us.. i have neglect my duty as his eldest daughter.. but i hope is not too kate to amend fer my mistake.. im selfish not think fer my parents n my family.. all i think of is myself.. im a bad daughter.. wen visit him juz now, everyone put a mask.. all of us put up a happy cheerful face..coz we dun want him to feel bad..hes oreadi feel bad bout his condition..we dun him to werie of feel disheartened wen looking at us.. wen he sees us happy,he will be happy to..we want him to ferget his weries n not to think of his sickness which cant be cure.. i pity my mum t0o.. i knoe shes sad n she is being strong..my mum is a very strong women.. she is.. she take good care of my dad without even once she complain..she too nvr neglect her duty as a mum n a wife t0o.. ppl i love is all sick ryte now.. my b0o is seriously sick t0o.. despite of dat, he f0rce himself to work.. i cant do anything execpt praying to god.. it really hurts to see him groaning in pain.. dats including my dad t0o.. how i wish i could do something but i cant or how i wish i could take over theor place.. life has no meaning fer me animore.. my life will much more meaningless without the both of dem..especially my dad.. i cant imagine wat my life n my family life will be with0ut my dad.. told my mum juz now, if sumting or aniting happens towards my dad *touch wo0d*,i would quit school n go out to work.. but she die2 wont allow me to work.. she say dat as long as shes alive, she gonna feed us 3 siblings n pay for our school stuff..her pay is usually enuf fer the h0usehold stuff..wat bout the bills n all dat?she cant cope al0ne.. i noe she want me to be a useful person but i as her daughter juz cant sit ard n do nothing.. i have to do sumting to lighten their problem.. fer my b0o,i l0ng wanted to visit him..but he dun allow.. he ask me to take care of dad.. but i cant.. hes anotha one.. i cant sit n shake my leg.. hes sick too.. he requested me to take care of him.. he told me that his sister cant take care of him.. how i wish i cud.. i really miss him alot..im helpless ryte now.. my flu is not goin anmy better... feel lyk cutting it.. i ate alot of pills but none work.. im tired of blowing my nose..naik melecit..n im tired of spiting my kahak..grrr.. im off to bed.. visiting my dad much more earlier..nyte2..

2006-04-13T00:14:00.000+08:00

spent the day todae at the hosp..sent my dad's dere.. hes warded dere but we do not have the idea wen he can be discharged.. the tyme to register my dad, dey took a very long tyme.. i was waiting outside fer the doctor to say bout my dad condition..coz dey have to thorough check my dad health..i was s0oo damn sleepy.. want t0 sleep but theres alot of ppl dere..supposely my bro has to accompany,but den he got sum stuff to do den i muz replace him..pity dat my mum cant handle alone, i tag along.. wen dad was certified to be warded, he was to go to the oservation ward..sum sort lyk temporary ward..dey den wikk shifted him to his room..so the leceh..the nurse ask we to come back ard 2+ coz we can e inside the observation ward..it was nearly 1 o'clock..where the hell r we goin to kill our tyme..since im hungrry,went to eat the canteen dere..eat slowly..walk2 ard the hosp but deres noting to look at.. den bought sum desserts..again we ate it slowly.. look at the tyme n its oreadi 2:30 pm..my dad call say he dat he got his bed at this ward but then sad t0 say, deres no one to push my dad to his room..ahackz... s0 farni..den mum n me suggested dat we ourselves wheel my dad to his room..oviously we cant..wait awhile den wen dad say hes at his room oreadi,we make our way dere..to my surprise,he was put in the same room b4 but juz the bed place is different..(he was admitted end of yr 2004) overall ok la the place.. ard 6 my bro come..we make a move ard 6.50 in order we can catch up the last shuttle bus service dat end at 7 pm.. we arrive at nick of tyme n guess wat, last bus is 6.50.. so got no choice,we have to walk to the mrt station..mum wanted to take bus but den it will takes years to arrive..at last we decided on my decision to take the mrt.. the journey is not as long as the bus timing..im damn tired oreadi..my feet hurts n its all bcoz of that floral slipper dat i juz bought few dayz back..not season yet... klah wanna go to bed..dam tired oreadi.. visiting my dad ard n0on tyme.. till den..t0ooodles...

2006-04-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

problems settled..but a lil unhappy with his excuses.. wats done cant be undone..he got brain to think..he shud knoe wat he do is wrong or right.. i cant owayz point out to his mistake..he didnt go work today.. said dat he sick.. see doc n he get two dayz mc.. he betta sit still at home or i gonna chop of his legs.. lucky him coz he still get pay wen hes mc..in other words mc with pay..m i right...?dun knoe la..gonna visit him tmrw.. im sick t0o..down with flu fer lyk 4 dayz oreadi but im getting sicker...so who shud visit who?hmmm..nvm i give in to him..next tyme wen im sick he shud be the one visiting me..fair n square..dad getting sicker.. mom gonna sent him t0 h0spital tmrw morning..maybe hes gonna be warded.. it really hurts to see him in pain..tell e who doesnt have a heart?? my uncle is gonna drive my mom n dad to the hospital.. quite a distance fer me to go to the hospital which is SGH n its located at outram...tampines to outram ...outram back to tampines.. wonder how long the journey will be.. but i reli dun mind coz i lyk goin to far2 places..wats more im visiting my dad.. im visiting my dad..not other ppl.. hmm.. nuting else to update..will be updating again tmrw aight..nyte2..t0odles...

heres goes again my flu..*aaaaccchhh00oooo*

2006-04-11T07:46:00.000+08:00

one whole night i didnt even close my eyes..wait up fer him..hes not back home..he didnt pick up my calls nor did he reply any of my msgs..where the hell have he been? he nvr spare a thought fer me at all..wat does he take me 4? wat m i to him? dun i mean anything to him..?? i really hope he will be ok..all i want is juz a call from him saying dat hes orite.. im worrie sick dat sumting had befall him.. hes nvr lyk diz b4 since i meet him.. or issit hes leaving me without saying goodbye.. grrr...i cant sit or lying down doin noting..i gotta do sumting.. will update again wen im free..

2006-04-08T15:05:00.000+08:00

gonna stick my arse at home the whole day..same goes fer tmrw i guess..no one ask me out.. *sobs*..everyone bz with their own stuff..even my b0o..haiz..i reali hate wn im bored n deres nuting i can do..wen boredom strikes me, the past flash back.. i really miss my past..especially those who were ard me..especially diz particular lady..i really miss her..miss the tyme we spent most our tyme together n we will nvr get sick seeing each other face even lyk everyday n 24/7..n every sat its a MUST to go out..n we will only be back past midnight..nvr fail to laugh in every ocassion we met..thinking bout it bring tears to my eyes..as tyme pass by,ppl change..we r lyk strangers ryte now..even if we r 10 steps away,we dun acknowledge each other..in other words,we r total strangers.. shocked? i m.. i dun go to places where we oways spent our tyme together.. alot of places we gone b4,i dun go dere animore..it really hurts.. fer sure i will tynk back bout the memories.. we use to share our cries,our laughter..we do everything together..wherever i will be,she will be dere..wherever she will be,i will be dere t0o..we help each other wenever deres probs..i really miss her alot..no one knoes how i feels..not even her..how i really wish i can turn back tyme.. n nvr once i regret having sum1 lyk her.. same goes to my another bestfren..she had new friends..therefore she dun need her old friends..miss her too..since she gone i spent my tyme with my another friend which i say earlier dat we r now strangers..once upon a time the 3 of us was so close..we r partner in crimes..everything we do,we do it together..i really love dem alot..as deres a saying goes...no point crying over a spill milk.. no matter wat i will keep loving n missing dem..dey will owayz be part of my life.. but im lucky to have one more bunch of crazy ppl.. but im not so close lyk the other two..dun ask y.. we do spent tyme together but the feeling issnt the same..treasure dem while u stii have dem... no use regreting wen dey r gone..trust me.. till den.. =(

[i miss her alot]

[ during our tymes together]

[i miss her t0o]

[now, its juz mem0ries left]

[the present state]

2006-04-07T14:57:00.000+08:00

First of all i would to wish my big montel n irritating sis a HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY..she turn 15 yesterday..dun knoe wat to buy fer her n oso im br0ke..s0 bought fer her sum girl stuff..but den she dun want..n she gave back to me..hahakz..celebrate her burfdae by eating at Chai Chee Restaurant..ate alot..n i mean al0oot..we had steamboat,butterprawn,yam basket,deres wanton noodle n oso chicken rice..we dun finish up the food so we tapao..went to 7-11 buy mr.s0ftee.. den g0 back.reach home,we cut cake..ch0ocalate cake..my mum bought it..quite nice..dats all fer her celebration.. went to school juz now..before passing thru my school gate,i saw my classmates cuming out..guess wat the come mark attendance den go back..waste tyme sark i cum..actuali i dun want to come..damn lazy ..but bcoz i good gurl i come..my boo oso saud no need to come.. but den i nvr go inside to mark my attendance..so lazy sia..den went to northpoint..mum ask me to look for diz butterfly crystal brooch fer her friend bilated present..she dun knoe where the shop is..so have to search fer it in every shops dere..f0und it.. the br0och so small seh n it cost $39.90..s0o damn expensive..told mum bout it n she said she will give me money to buy dat..waste money..not my money so cant talk much..walk2 at robinson..den got diz lady cum t0wards me to d0 sum survey bout that robinsons store..since i have plenty time to spare i do that survey..kinda crap ah..afta doin dat st0opid survey she gave me a bootle of shampoo as a token of appreciation..hahakz..farni..walk2 awhile den go back..i got off the mall on tyme coz went i walk out,its drizzling oreadi..few minutes later..deres heavy pour..its been raining cats n d0gs fer the past one week seh..n its s0o the leeebat..n it will rain ard the same tyme..pherf.. dats all bout yesterday.t0dae i nvr go school..todae the last day of school n i certified that my 3 WEEKS HOLIDAE IS HERRE...yabadabad0ooo..but den ryte,i will be damn bored seh..n0 j0b or no money to go out..grrr..i juz hate being broke or being bored..it juz sux..all diz fer now..im hungrry.. t0oodles..

my sis with her bouquet of chocolates

2006-04-04T17:10:00.002+08:00

ehk..im really damn piss off seh.. everytime i upload the song..it will nvr came out..grrr.. i do it many tymes oreadi..really need sum1 help..who can help??? niwae come late for test juz now.. lucky dat mr.b0tak allow me n art take the test.. after getting the papers, see the qns..walau.. can do only 2 qns out of 20 lyk dat.. hahakz..i dun even knoe wat the teacher is teaching..den one of my fren help me n art ..he gave us the answer n he said he saw the teacher copy with the answers...hahakz..s0o bad seh..afta dat went to junction 8 to have our lunch..cant decide where to eat..at last went to pastamania..ate the spicy chicken pasta choice of penne pasta..nt bad lah..put soo many cheese..*slurps* i l0ike.. was s0oo damn full.. difficult to walk..hahakz.. go back school coz got another test to do..reach class,teacher havent come so waot awhile.. wait n wait..at last my mr doraemon come.. finish do test den can g0 back.. thought it will be the same test i took b4.. but surprisingly its bout wat my teacher teach last week n dats the day i skip his lesson..luckily the 1st few pages can do..only the last page cannot do.. ask the clever ppl to help n not to give answer ok..pass up n straight away he say i no need retest.. means dat i pass my test..was raining damn heavily..den my b0o call said dat he fetch me g0 back..aww.. so sweet of him.. of coz lah i say yes..rarely ok he want to fetch me.. sent me back n off he g0 t0 work..n now here i am at home blogging..actuali the post is kinda crap la..my hand itchy want to type.. dats the reason i post up a new entry..klah wanna watch tv..update sum other tyme ok.. t0oodles..

2006-04-03T23:18:00.000+08:00

school was ok..came on time..but did nuting..see ppl play psp,play cards n be a busybody as in go to the other class..wait fer art to come..help her with her test which me myself cant do it.. afta dat went t0 northpoint.. had our breakfast+dinnner.. after dat wen to starbucks..talk2 bout love probs..loong tyme never sit n talk.. afta dat art decided to walk2..she were l0oking fer diz za compact powder which in white version at watson..saw it n it cost $29.90..den i want to go to toilet..guess wat..instead of goin to the ladies,we enter the gents..n the both of us lyk..ehk y lyk different..den we saw the place where the guy urine n only we knoe dat we r in the gents..*lolx* quickly we go out from the gents..lucky deres no one at that tyme...*pheewww*..cant stop laughing.. imagine wen we enter,got diz apek or any guys dere doin their urine business..hahakz. den got sum misunderstanding with my b0o..till now we still not ok..bought fer him some food fer him to bring to work..hes werking nyte shift diz week..i knoe he wont eat so bought sum tidbits fer him.. his work place has no canteen at all..wat a place..as we had sum misunderstanding, i put the stuff in top of his car..his house is near northpoint..5 min walk lyk dat..den call him saying dat dun 4get to take the stuff..scared later ppl take plak.. den he ask me to bring dat stuff to his house..but den i die2 dun wanna go..not in the mood lah.. force n force..he ask his sister to go down n search fer me.. boleh terjumpa plak.. want or dun want,have no ch0ice but juz t0 foll0w her g0 t0 my b0o house..haiz.. walau his face,punyalah step..grrr...piss off seh..den his mum saw the l0ok on his face..ask him y he dun smile lyk he use to wen he meet me..guess wat he say..ppl lyk ME dun deserve his smile.. lucky his mom is dere if n0t..i will juz throw dat stuff at him n walk away..wah my bl0od b0iling sia.. sent me h0me.. accompany him t0 buy his car season coupon n den he sent me home..the whole j0urney, we didnt utter a single word..lyk strangers lyk dat.. drop me under my void deck n off he go to work..during his break he called..talk thing out..voice out wat i want from him..n all dat i keep in myself fer lyk the whole period we r together.. juz have no courage to speak up.. dunno y suddenly everything cum out till he went quiet.. all he can say dat i have grown up..ahackz..duh..haiz.. afta talk he have to go back work..till n0w he nvr call..n0t even sms.. gasak kau lah..hmmph..aniwae im certain dat i want to take driving c0urse diz year..i have d0 the test online n oso on the book..the sc0re is n0t t0o bad but hopefull i can get my hands on the wheel the earliest diz year or perhaps next yr.. insyaallah..hmm k till den i update..wat a long entry..liyana2..k2 wanna g0 sleep..damn sleepy..t0ooodless..!!!

2006-04-02T19:32:00.000+08:00

fer the past two dayz,i been coping at home d0in nuting..eat,watch tv n play the c0mp is wat i d0 the whole tyme..b0o is out enjoying himself n i at home doin all dose nonsence things.. wanna go out but den,deres no one to accompany me..wanna watch movie but then,dun know which show t0 watch..niwae 10 april- 1st may is my school h0lidaes.. not too long n not t0o sh0rt.. but den one or tw0 days,have to go back to school..g0t sum theort test..i prefer theory better den practical..it juz sucks..was having my practical phase test on thurs n guess wat..not even a single thing i knoe..see la,skip school sum more.. its not dat im not interested to study but the teacher is s0o lame..i guess he oso dunnoe wat he is teaching..*lolx* seriously not many ppl knoe wat hes teaching about.. deres one ocassion where im late fer class..i expect my teacher to be in class to rant at me fer being late..surprisingly hes not in n those in the class were either sleeping,play cards or play their psp..i was lyk wtf???where the hell is he..i ask one of my selenger fren where the teacher,she told me hes next door..orite,i went out the class to look fer him..wen i saw him,i ask him,

me: cher, y r u here? u suppose t0 teach in the class next door not chit-chatting..

him: aiyah,i knoe..but im hungry..i cant teach wen im hungry.im going break in 10 mins time...

me:huh..break?? so u not teaching issit..?? aiyo..[den i walk away]

n diz is how the teachers teach..diz is how life in ite..teacher all heck care one..i will be having another test on tues n weds..diz subject,the teacher is much more better than the others.. theref0re,i nvr skip his class b4..hahakz..m i being bias toward the teacher..n showing favouratism towards sum of dem..???hehe..hmm so afta diz i wanna learn my basic safety driving theory test..lent my bro book..im taking car licience diz may..hopefully i pass..so wherever i wanna go is much more convenient..especially at nyte wen deres no more bus n mrt services..im not rich to take the cab..dad has a car,so can use his..hehe..im taking advantage herre..but deres one problem dat im scared of is dat,i scared dat i get lost..i owayz imagine dat for example,i wanted to go to yishun n suddenly i lost my way n end up at jurong lyk dat..gosh.. i hate being lost..n i dun want to be lost..so wherever i wanna go,muz bring along sumone who knoe the roads well..hmmph..dats a g0od idea..*grins* k till den..wanna prepare fer my school stuff..muz be early fer school tmrw..im a g0ood gurl..*lolx* nyte2..t0odles... =)

2006-03-31T22:23:00.000+08:00

dun blame me for watevers happen..it all bcoz of u dat i become lyk diz..all the things dat i've done fer u nvr one did u appreciate..wat wr0ng have i done ?? all the things u dun want me t0 d0,i dun d0..i change becoz u ask me t0.but its nvr enuff..im juz a human n0t an angel.. humans makes mistakes..u t0o make mistake.. i cant be 100% purfect..wen i say sumting, everything is wrong..or u will say wateva i say is craps..so i dun have any say issit..????it takes TWO hands to clap n it os0 takes TWO person to tango.so wat the use of me still staying on if i cant have any say??? do u tynk its fair..fer the past years we've been together i have tolerated everything..i keep quiet..now i have grown up n i can tynk for myself without u thinking for me.. i need some space to move ard..i fell suffocated do u knoe dat.u still look me on as im a toddler.. i have nvr stop u from anything u want to do n not even once..without a second thought i allow u t0 g0 n i owayz remind u to take care of urself ..i wait fer u up till u r back home even though the sun has oreadi set n not even awhile i close my eyes..i keep praying hard dat u will be ok werever u go..wats m0re d0 u want..its n0t dat i want u t0 repay me back f0r wat i have d0ne.. all i want from u is t0 understand my needs..i dun ask fer anything more..slowly u love for me is fading..but i still holding on strong to keep diz relationship goin on strong.. i will nvr ever give up..i have done my part for the two of us..now its ur turn..n diz its not matter of u r a guy n u can do anything dat u please but i as a girl i cant..think bout wat i say.. i can no longger keep diz any longger inside without doing anything.. i've no want to talk to..not even one.. juz letting out wat i want t0 say..t0odles..

2006-03-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

i wanna be alone..i need space..

I've had rainy days, and disturbing nights

Feelings so blue, so many, many fights

I looked for the rainbow

Some sembalance of hope in sight

Believing joy came in the morning

Bringing new hope and light

Why can't you be near me

Why are you not here to hold me in your arms

There's a storm raging inside me

Why couldn't you see, you were my world

You claimed that you loved me

But you've left me alone

Was I just a fascination

To be used and then sprawned

I believed you when you said you loved me

I took you at your word

I believed you when you said you desired me

All a mistake, as I've seen and heard

As a child breaks his playthings

You were so cruel to break my heart

You did not consider my heart was not a toy

Not a plaything to destroy

You know they say, you will reap

Exactly what you sow. So now I'm alone

You will be too, as you continue

On the path you're on.

2006-03-30T18:14:00.000+08:00

life has nvr get better..another words,much m0re pr0bs arise..sch0ol is getting t0ugher..i cant c0pe..i have oreadi try my best but i juz cant get by..i really regret taking this c0urse.. even if i have completed diz full 2 yrs c0urse,at the end of the year i will ferget everything that i have learnt from the past years..n is such a hassle t0 remember everything dat i've learnt.. maybe after finishing this c0urse,i will choose another course or stop schooling n start werking..im tired of studying..haiz..can anione give me any suggestion or advice..ur help ig greatly appreciated. im hungry..will update again..

2006-03-26T23:26:00.000+08:00

im b0oooooored..s0oooo b0red...n0 one entertaining me..i reali hate loneliness n i hate t0 be al0ne.. do nuting t0dae..help my my c0ok,play the c0mp n den watch tv..dats all.. grrrrrr.. lucky tmrw sch0oling..at least n0t s0 bad.. i havent pass up my pr0ject which the due date is 6 march.. hahakz.. den my teacher gave me warning last week dat i have t0 pass it up in 2 dayz tyme..ahackz.. but den i did not attend sch0ol on dat day.. im s0o bad.. im slacking seh.. i realli dun knoe wat t0 d0.i do want t0 study hard n g0t g0od grades by den im plain lazy..if he g0t t0 knoe b0ut diz,he will rant at me up n d0wn..haiz.. klah i want t0 watch tv..nyte2..

2006-03-26T16:12:00.000+08:00

h0w many days havent i updated..hmm 4get liao..as usual sitting at h0me the wh0le day..nt g0in anywhere..wait fer him t0 cum back..he went t0 his cuzzen wedding n maybe afta dat slack ard with dem..i have n0 idea t0o..well yesterday went t0 the m0sque again t0 dgr syarahan at serang0on dere..talk b0ut family matters..m0st of the time i play game on my hp..hahakz..t0 be truthful i dun lyk t0 g0 t0 diz syarahan..juz g0 as im f0rce by my mum..usually we r seated on the floor..n i have diz problem dat wen i sit down on the floor for a long tyme,dere will be muscle cramp.. i really hate it..it difficult to change my sitting position as dere is ppl at the back,front, my left side n my right side..it will be very irritating to dem..s0 i have t0 juz sit still..n wen everythings over, i cant stand up..grrr....really hate it sia..afta dat went to have our supper at diz geylang dere..heavy supper indeed...lucky i didnt eat s0o much in the day..afta reaching hm ard 1 lyk dat,waith fer my b0o..he went out with his br0 n its n0t suprising if he g0t back ony wen the sun has set..wait n wait,he call me at 6+..hes back..at last..talk awhile bef0re g0in t0 bed.. sleep thru till 2 pm..hahakz..issit long..but i sleep nearly 7 am..he call me at 11 am saying hes ready t0 g0 t0 the wedding.. of coz afta dat i went t0 bed till 2 wen my my scream...hahakz.. im s0o b0red sitting at h0me.. but wat t0 do..gt n0 ch0ice..k den till herre..wanna disturb my sis while shes preparing fer her f&n upcoming exam.. t0odles...

2006-03-24T18:38:00.000+08:00

didnt update yesterday..n0 tyme..reach h0me ard 10+..b4 dat went t0 meet dad at his dialysis centre t0 ask fer sum $$$..im out of j0b n im broke..s0 have t0 rely on dem fer $$$..hehehe.. between my mum n dad,i will get more $$$ from my dad den my mum.. afta dat dad sent me t0 my fren(fiza grandma hse)..shes a tuan puteri s0 have t0 fetch her.. afta fetching fiza, went t0 meet my other gurlfrenz(azie n imah) at the mrt.. afta dat all four if us went t0 chill at new y0rk pizza t0 have my lunch cum dinner..im damn huungryyyy..dey eaten oreadi s0 i ate al0ne.. afta awhile went t0 7-11 t0 chill dere..actuali decided t0 g0 back at 8+..tok n tok is o oreadi.den lyn arrive..shes fr0m werk..den the guys arrive..talk2 n laugh2 n i dun realise its oreadi 10.. so me n fiza g0 back 1st as she want t0 save her energy fer t0dae as shes g0nna hit devil's bar t0nite.. semangat nk mampus..my sis call say dat she want mcspicy d0uble..s0 as a g0od sis i went t0 the mac n bought her mcspicy n my bro d0uble cheese..cant but 1..n0t g0od if buy fer her only den my br0 watch her eat..den h0me sweet h0me..talk t0 my b0o..hes angry dat i g0 out.. n i was like talking b0ut other things wen he was screaming at me..msk telinga kiri,keluar teling kanan..hahakz..im bad..can sleep the whole nyte s0 juz lie d0wn on bed n start dreaming..n maybe dats the reas0n fer this very painful pimple gr0wing on my n0se..it hurts al0ooooot.. grrrrrrrrr..feel lyk squezzing but..its painful..haiz.. orite all diz fer t0dae..my dad want me t0 fry him s0me banana fritters..mums one n0t nice,s0 he ask me.. s0rie m0ther..juz j0king.. w0oh0oooo s0und yummy..k den..t0odles..

2006-03-23T03:35:00.000+08:00

its oreadi 3+ cumin t0 4 in the m0rning..but i simply juz cant shut my eyes n g0 t0 bed..aniwae my sis has help me d0ne up the bl0g..realli appreciate it s0o much bc0z of me she sleep late.. thankz alot..ard 1 juz n0w meet azie n had our supper..juz ate prata c0z n0t s0o hungry..juz g0t back half n hr ag0.. feeling a lil better after talking my hearts out..pour out all my s0rr0ws.. thankz fer lending me ur ears my sweetie azie..tmrw g0in sch0ol..i m fer sure..t0dae nvr cum, s0 tmrw muz c0me..th0ugh i juz come fer the attendance thingy but its ok fer me..hmm..tired oreadi wanna lie d0wn oreadi..will update tmrw..nyte2..t0odles...

2006-03-22T12:51:00.000+08:00

he really hurt me s0o much diz tyme..s0 s0 much..didnt g0 t0 sch0ol..if i g0,nuting will c0me inside my head.. if he still dun l0ve me, y muz he said all dat hurtful things t0 me..dun i mean anyting t0 him..??? one minute hes damn g0od t0 me, the next minute he will change t0 the opp0site..it w0nt take l0ng fer him t0 change..it dun even take a day..he left a deep scar in my heart..it will take s0me time t0 heal..leave me al0ne.....

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